Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Comfort Zone

Recently, I've had to wrap my mind around something which caused me to evaluate myself in a whole new light. What I discovered: truth is not always a bright rainbow in a cloudless sky. Truth can make us uncomfortable. Truth can be scary. Truth can even hurt.

When I faced this, I would always run back to my comfort zone. I would turn back to that which I knew, the way I thought the world was and will always be. Then I either become lost in the lies I wrap around myself once again, or I see the wrappings as lies and they rot in my hands as I stretch them ever thinner before the truth.

Often when one says, "When we step out of the comfort zone, we grow," they speak of learning something new. Whether it it developing a new talent, making a new friend or moving to a new area, this will be true. But that statement also reflects the reality of facing the truth.

If I step away from my comfort zone, step away from the familiar untruths and face the truth, I can learn and grow. In the end, that growth far outweighs any discomfort, fear and pain I feel. Yes, I swallow hard, feel the blood pulsing through my rapidly beating heart, take a deep shaky breaths and experience the tears streaming down my face. It is not easy.

That growth makes me stronger, able to get through even greater challenges ahead and gives me what I need to help others get over the hurdle I just faced. It takes courage - a LOT of courage - and faith. I had the faith to know I was not alone as I struggled to face the truth and learn from it, change with it. That, I believe, made a tremendous difference.

What is this truth? There are many truths that will be revealed to a person in life. Sometimes many times, sometimes only once. Some know one truth but not others that are waiting to be discovered and learned from. Each provides a chance to grow inside. And many times, truth can be something very personal yet very profound.

I will admit, there are times even after I've struggled through once, that I will tend to hide in my comfort zone when I face another. It gives me smoother sailing during my day, but at night leaves me to wonder what opportunity for growth have I just let slip past. Was I too asleep in my comfort zone? Or did I give in to the fear and run hiding like a child who's afraid of the dark?
I should stop doing that. It is hard, but possible.

I know fear is used to keep me from knowing and understanding the truth - fear of what people will say, fear of what I will find out, fear of the unknown, fear of the discomfort and pain... but mostly fear that I will have to realize I was wrong! For some reason, that seems to be the most difficult for me to overcome. I can admit I was wrong. I can apologize for being wrong. But when it comes to REALIZING deep within my heart, mind and soul that I WAS wrong is very, VERY scary and can even be painful. That seems to drive me back to the comforting lies more than anything else.

And it shouldn't.

That's where my resolve to do right and be a righteous person is tested the hardest it seems. The biggest battles are often fought within the heart.

But I continue to strive, and will as long as I'm alive...
To keep stepping out of that comfort zone...
And grow.

-ESA

Public Praise - Hidden Gems

One of the things I've discovered about myself recently. If I do some good in this world, something whispers in my head that I should sing about it. There are several acts of kindness I may do throughout the day, some just small little things. Even as I write this, I'm tempted to start listing them. I even had it typed out and deleted them.

I get the impression that I should tweet about it on Twitter; that it will be a good example to others. I get the urge that I should make a video about each of the good works I do and show people how they too can help. I'm led to believe that I should blog about it, illuminating the path others could take and made this world a better place.

I will tell you why I really should NOT and - to the level best that I can achieve in my imperfect life - do not.

When one does a good work and then publically sings, displays, exhibits, demonstrates or otherwise publicizes the good work, they will get public recognition. People will join in singing their praises and mimic their works in the attempt to get a piece of that spotlight. Many will likewise do the same and get some of the star-sparkle glittering on their names as well.

But in my life, it's not the spotlight nor the star-sparkle I seek. Those are things that are not-only short lived, they are only external - of this outside world. The spotlight does not illuminate that which is within the person, just the outside face they show to the world. I seek a greater Light to illuminate my works.

When we do good works in this world, it builds something beautiful beyond words within us. But when we use such good works as a lure of the spotlight, it's like letting the air out of a tire - it deflates us. We are sparkling in the spotlight for a short time and left deflated for a much greater period of time...

Further, I will NOT buy into the belief that if one does not know my works, I will not be a good example to others. In fact, the opposite is true, one's acts shine with their own brilliance. If we seek the public spotlight, we exhibit the wrong desire and are a poor example.

Those that do things "hidden" or in small unrecognized ways, already know that their works shine. It's seen in the sparkle of the tearful eyes of one benefiting from the kindness, in the emotional tremor of a quietly spoken "thank you" or in the inner warmth one receives when they do some good and none but God knows it was by their hand.

These hidden gems are the ones that people see and realize - THIS IS A GOOD THING - without a word being spoken or a camera filming it. These shine on their own and its by their light that the true example is shown. This is a far more beautiful thing than can ever be found in this world. Hidden in the clasp of a loving hand in a lonely one, in the smile of a stranger's face, in the little act that makes someone's life a bit more easier to bear...

Where can you plant hidden gems?
Let their light shine!
Brightly.

-ESA

Distractions

It's amazing how many distractions I can find in my life if I just sit back and take the time to notice that they are there. I've had several great topics I wanted to blog, friend's emails I wanted to reply to, friends and relatives I mean to call, time I need to spend with my husband... things that should get done but gets swept away by petty, little -- and sadly pointless -- distractions.

Distractions are little things I will turn my attention to instead of that which I should do. This can be a game, sudoku puzzle, surfing the internet aimlessly, reading a book, and many other things that, by themselves, aren't bad to indulge in but do not need to be done before that which should be done.

This will most often happens when I find that which I should do as difficult or uncomfortable. The distractions bring a sense of comfort, familiarity, fun or similar feelings. For example, in writing this blog alone, I have been distracted and have:
  • written a list of other ideas to blog
  • loaded a program on my boss' computer
  • chatted with someone
  • read other people's blogs
  • watched videos posted on the internet
  • looked up which founding father mentioned "an armed and educated populace" is an essential thing <-- and that one took a good chunk of time

  • helped my boss look for a lost wallet
  • written to someone about the "armed and educated populace" findings
  • further chatted with people...
You get the idea... I was even having distractions distract me from the original distractions. LOL This has taken three hours of time wherein this blog (and the others on that list) could have been done.

What's wrong with distractions (other than not getting work done)? They can mislead us from what we should do, what we should hear, what we should see, where we should be. Like a child being led away with the promise of candy and fun times, we can let the little distractions that infiltrate our activities lead us away from what we should do in this life.

Distractions are little temptations. Temptation will not come in the form of a winged devil offering you the best the world can offer and all you have to do is say yes or no. It can come in the form of tiny little distractions, procrastinations and deviations that can lead us astray, one sidestep at a time.

In the end, when we look back on our lives, what will we see? Will we see the achievements we've accomplished, the good that we've done, the people that we have helped, or will we see all the little distractions that, in the end, really amount to nothing.

When I see what the little distractions can do in my life, I see where I need to shoulder my burdens a bit better and, like a quarterback with those really big shoulder-pads, take the treasure of the goal I wish to accomplish in my arms and plunge my way through all the little distractions that try to tackle me and take me down before I can reach my objective.

The ball is in your hands now.
Will you fumble
Or score

- ESA

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

What is the Other Message?

During a long drive this past weekend, my husband and I listened to a commercial and it brought to mind one of our long-standing conversations - what ELSE is the commercial saying?
  • In this radio ad, there was a teenage girl sobbing her eyes out that her figure and face wasn't as pretty as those in the magazines. The consoling mother knew just what to do - take the girl shopping to the local outlets stores. The teenage girl instantly stopped her sobbing and cheered right up. Loving mother even commented on how happy her daughter now was.
The obvious message - shop at the local outlet stores - had an additional message. If we don't like what we see in the mirror, go shopping. After all, material goods BUYS happiness!
  • A cologne commercial on TV has all the girls dismissing this guy until he starts wearing this particular cologne. Then the girls stream out of no where and hang all over this guy, clinging to his every word, look, gesture, and - to a significant degree - body part.
The obvious marketing message - buy this cologne - is heavily influenced by the message that, as a society, guys WANT women to hang all over them. If the women aren't, there MUST be something wrong with you, so go out and buy more products: scents, designer clothes, sports cars, etc. so women will swoon over you too. After all, it's not WHO you are but WHAT you can buy that makes you a person of worth!
  • A commercial aired during a children's television show had an animated rabbit talking with a glum-looking group of kids. The mother of one of kids comes back from shopping. No one goes to help. The rabbit gets the kids to ask if they can have the chocolate flavored milk IF they help. Then the kids immediately descend on the car and help carry in the groceries. They line up with big smiles right after the chocolate powder (first and only thing removed from the grocery bags) is out.
The commercial message - buy this chocolate powder - has several other messages. First, the children need this chocolate powder to be happy. (And I'm sure I'm not the only adult who has seen a child throw a temper-tantrum, a hissy-fit, or just pout/mope because (s)he didn't get chocolate-flavored milk.) Second, don't ever volunteer to help one another; instead demand "what's in it for me?" Third, as soon as you reached the goal you wish to accomplish - stop helping. And finally, if you are bored – eat and/or drink something. It will alleviate boredom AND make you happy. Is this really what we want to teach our children?
  • There is a candy commercial that also broadcasts during children's shows. A teen / tween is hanging out on some picnic tables under a pavilion with some friends his age. He is eating some candy. One of his friends asks "can I have some?" At which point this guy pauses and slugs his friend - hard - knocking him out.
Well beyond the "buy this candy" message. There a startlingly horrifying message. Not only do you NOT want to share, you ATTACK someone who just asks for something? What does this teach our children?!? What does it teach the adults? Is this how we view society today?
  • The same candy has another commercial where one older teen walks into the room and if his friend has eaten the candy out of the hour glass. The other denies it. The teen starts to age dramatically, so the one sitting there comments, “Well, maybe just one or two..” and continues to eat the candy while watching his friend become a sad, old man.
In addition to "buy this candy" message, we are taught that your should lie to keep out of trouble. When caught in the lie (with evidence shown) that we should still lie while confessing it’s just “one or two.” And, of course, it’s perfectly acceptable to sit there complacently enjoying the fruits of another’s labors (it WAS the first guy’s candy) while watching the other suffer! Think about what this is telling us.
  • A fast-food commercial shows this car at a drive-thru window with a guy ordering his meal. Out of no where, the car behind him hits his vehicle hard and continues to forcibly push it out of the way. Then the second driver (smiling at his success) orders the new burger on the menu.
So not only do we take away that we need to buy this new burger from this chain, but we are permitted - actually encouraged - to push people out of the way as we do so. That reaching our goal is the most important thing - no matter how we hurt another, damage another's goods and are just plain rude to our fellow human being.
There are many, many more commercials I can go through. Sometimes it's an eye-opener to sit through them and ask after each one: "OK, what is the OTHER meaning?" It helps open your eyes to all the messages beyond selling a product or service.
How many times do we simply ignore it, or worse - absorb it. This is, after all, a reflection on the way society is, isn't it? Or are we really “sheeple” and just roll over saying, "sure, kids today don't want to help" or "keep your hands off MY stuff" like the commercials teach us?
We need to acknowledge that the other messages are there. See them. Hear them. Then we need to see the response people around us have to those messages. Are they ignoring them? Are they buying into the messages? Are they repeating those actions? Are we?
Next, we need to do something about it. Bringing the additional message to another's attention is a simple and non-confrontational way. Another idea is bringing the mimicked actions to another's attention -- and be willing to have others bring our actions to our attention too. This isn't easy, but it will help counter all the additional messages woven through commercials and scattered like rotten grain into our society. If we simply help each other refocus - person-to-person - we can slow down or stop the spread of these secondary messages.
Perhaps one day we'll see more commercials that focus on building up the community, family, faith in one another, and sharing love instead of fighting over candy...
What is the other message?
See, hear, acknowledge
Spread the word
- ESA

Friday, August 21, 2009

The Choir (Choirii) (Story)

This is a story I was told long ago and has recently resurfaced. I've been asked to share:
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THE CHOIR (CHOIRII)

In a time before the fall, long before humans were ever created, was a time of God and His angels.

One day, God commanded the angels before the Throne to sing a song.
The angels gathered at once to obey His command.

However, one angel's heart wasn't into it, and did not put his/her full effort into the song.

After all,
(s)he believed, "it would not matter if I do not sing my best. For mine is just one small voice within the vast multitude."

The song started beautifully.

But since the angel's heart wasn't in the song, it wasn't as perfect as it should have been.

Notes were missed.

This wrecked havoc on the harmony, which in turn led to the ultimate collapse of the melody - it was a disaster.

God was furious!
He knew what happened and why.

He let forth a tremendous Wrath upon all the angels of the choir.

All parts of Heaven reverberated with the sound of His Rebuke!

And the very essence of Heaven shook with His Rage!

The angels suffered tremendously - especially the one who did not put his/her heart into the song.

There was a great multitude of "singed feathers" in Heaven that day.

And the cries of their loss echoed across all Creation...

From that point on (for a while at least) anything angels did to serve God was done with their whole heart and not half-hearted as the one angel had done.

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- ESA

Special Grocery List (Story)

This came to me by email and it's a beautiful story:
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Louise Redden, a poorly dressed lady with a look of defeat on her face, walked into a grocery store. She approached the owner of the store in a most humble manner and asked if he would let her charge a few groceries. She softly explained that her husband was very ill and unable to work, they had seven children and they needed food.

John Longhouse, the grocer, scoffed at her and requested that she leave his store at once.

Visualizing the family needs, she said: "Please, sir! I will bring you the money just as soon as I can."

John told her he could not give her credit, since she did not have a charge account at his store.
Standing beside the counter was a customer who overheard the conversation between the two. The customer walked forward and told the grocer that he would stand good for whatever she needed for her family.

The grocer said in a very reluctant voice, "Do you have a grocery list?"

Louise replied, "Yes sir."

"O.K" he said, "put your grocery list on the scales and whatever your grocery list weighs, I will give you that amount in groceries."

Louise hesitated a moment with a bowed head, then she reached into her purse and took out a piece of paper and scribbled something on it. She then laid the piece of paper on the scale carefully with her head still bowed.

The eyes of the grocer and the customer showed amazement when the scales went down and stayed down.
The grocer, staring at the scales, turned slowly to the customer and said begrudgingly, "I can't believe it."
The customer smiled and the grocer started putting the groceries on the other side of the scales. The scale did not balance so he continued to put more and more groceries on them until the scales would hold no more.

The grocer stood there in utter disgust. Finally, he grabbed the piece of paper from the scales and looked at it with greater amazement.

It was not a grocery list, it was a prayer, which said: "Dear Lord, you know my needs and I am leaving this in your hands."

The grocer gave her the groceries that he had gathered and stood in stunned silence.

Louise thanked him and left the store.

The other customer handed a fifty-dollar bill to the grocer and said; "It was worth every penny of it. Only God Knows how much a prayer weighs."

When you read this, please take a moment to say a prayer.

So few times we give credit to what prayer is and how much it can affect and influence our own lives and the lives of others.

Sometimes we need little reminders to show us there is Someone listening.
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Pause
Pray
Please

- ESA

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Bright Lights

Between the news the media covers and how bad news seems to travel further and faster than good news, it is difficult to see the good in our fellow human beings. Instead we look upon each other with fear and suspicion.

Recently, a friend had some people reach out to him and his wife in their need. I admit that my first and primary response was that fear when I heard they not only had his phone number but also his address, saying they will bring over some goods. I warned my friend to be very careful as these people could rob them or worse...

His response snapped me into a better perspective. He told me flatly, there was nothing in his home worth stealing. He was not going to let the fear that we have of strangers stop him from opening the door to those who really do intend to help.

He judged correctly, those people brought smiles, food and things he and his wife could use, a very rare thing in his life and a blessing he received with a gratitude and joy that touched my heart.

Someone really cared for their fellow human beings.
Someone fought that fear and opened their door.
Together that moment has something to teach us all.

We should be alert and open the ways for any of our fellow human beings who truly wish to help others. And while we should maintain vigilance against those who deceive, manipulate and abuse the ways we open, we should never use it as an excuse or reason to let our fears lock us away from each other.

We all share this world. True, there is darkness and evil here. But there are many bright points of Light and Love here too. If we open our eyes to see the difference, we will see not only the bright points, but the ways they illuminate where we can help one another.

We also shouldn't propagate the bad news; just alert others of precautions to take. Instead, we should spread good news, and fight against the fear that has made us mistrustful of one another.

Hand-in-Hand can humanity stand
Against the fear
Trust in Love

- ESA

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Lifting my Voice (Poem)

I needed some time to myself, but now... I want to sing, I want to shout! I want to tell the world what I'm about.

Why am I so shy and hesitant in what I say - more each day...

I giggle, stay silent - I just want to hide... rather than plainly state what I feel inside.


Yesterday and then again today, someone said he saw wisdom in what I had to say...

And yet I hesitate and hold back. Is it simply courage that I lack?

I need to change, to grow... to become something more than what I know!

I was told change is NOT something to fear...

But something that instead should be treasured dear.

The enemy uses fear to stop us as we progress, each hesitation is a measure of his success.

I should start to again blog this, and share with any who may witness...

Fear NOT the change.

Through it we grow.

Let that show.

- ESA

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Trust of a Child

I spent the night at my sister's place visiting, but I woke up exceptionally early (before 4:30 AM) and logged online to find something to occupy my time.

I went to IM chat box first, but the only two friends "online" I knew were likely asleep, so I refrained from sending a post that may wake them, leaving them to dream in what Peace they may find.

I then wandered my way back to Twitter and skimmed through the tweets. My drive to go to Twitter every day had suddenly fallen off last weekend.

For the past week it felt as though I was tossed unanchored from wave to wave seeking more secure footing. I still had my guiding star in sight, but without secure footing, sometimes one gets a few mouthfuls of water to spit out before toes can dig into the sand and find the rock ledge beneath.

What my wandering heart and mind sought this early hour was not there. So I continued...

Instead of a gaming website (which I tended to visit when I could not find anyone I wanted to converse with online), I went to my blog and skimmed through the sites I follow.

There I found a few allegedly inspirational posts, but they seemed to fall dead at my feet this morning as I sat in the silent darkness before the first birdsong hearing only the rain pitter-patter on the walkway outside.

I also read a few humorous blogs; some made me smile, but not had me laugh nor lifted the darkness that seemed to grow more oppresive with each passing minute.

Then I came across my young niece's blog. She wrote of her 14-year-young problems with her mom, step-dad, friends and boyfriend. But she also wrote a lot about God and Jesus. Even when she did not name them, her faith shone through her words - clearly stating that no matter what she faced, God was there. She just had to put her trust in Him to see her through whatever life placed in her path.

I believe that was what my heart sought. So many times, I get so wrapped up focusing on stuff in my head, with work, with family, with discussions of what things written long ago may mean, I forget to take a still moment -- even one in the middle of the night -- and just listen to God's song in my heart, trusting Him and letting Him guide me where I need to be and with what I'm called to do. I know He is reaching out to me and to each and every one of us...

When that finally dawned on me, the first birdsong rang clear and true outside the window where I still sit. I clicked on the [New Post] button and decided to share this moment with you. It's very early morning; the sun barely kissed the sky with light and a lone bird greets the still morning outside. The song in my heart joins in it's song lifted to God.

Relive the faith of a child.
Believe He's reaching.
Trust in Him

- ESA

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The Shell (Poem)

This is a poem written a year ago after I tried to describe to someone what it was like being an outcast while I was growing up, and how it affects your ability to trust another. I rediscovered it this morning thumbing through my journal. I have a friend now going through something similar....

When the waters grow deeper
The world darkens before your eye
You reach and you search
Find nothing no matter how you try
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God's Light diminishes
As you hide behind that wall
Protect yourself from the darkness
With a wall strong and tall
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A knock at the door
A lance of pain sears
You lash out at the invader
As you fight off your tears
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The blow you make hits
But no matter how you try
The invader persists
Trying to make you cry
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A crack at the wall
Light floods inside
Fearing the unknown
Into the shadows you hide
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A hand reaches in
You lash out again
The hand is still there
Bloody and grim
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A gentle voice coaxes
Get out of that shell
Place your trust in Me
I will make you well
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Bewildered and frightened
You shrink back some more
Afraid heart and soul
Of the voice at the door
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The hand is still there
No harsh words are said
No scolding, no reprimand
No curse from the dead
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You place your hand
In the hand of the other
As you leave that shell
You may find a Brother

-ESA

Sunday, July 12, 2009

A Little Prayer to Share (Poem)

Today I just wanted to share a special prayer:

Lord Jesus Christ,
I love You
With all my heart
All my spirit
All my soul

I thank you for Your Love
Your gentle patience
And ever-presence
At my side

I'm sorry for the times I've hurt You
And the times I've turned away from You
Even though You remained
Steadfastly at my side

Please help me keep my feet
On the path set before me
Until I can walk at Your side
Forever
In Your Glory

Amen

- ESA

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Comforting Thought

This morning, instead of waking up early on a fantastically beautiful day and hauling our stuff out for the yard sale with the neighbors, my husband and I spent the morning in the local hospital's emergency room.

I remember how frightened I was this morning. I had a lot of pain, I had passed out around 5:30 AM, and I didn't know what was wrong. While I rode shotgun in my husband's van with a bucket on my lap in case the nausea was serious about what it threatened, I prayed.

My mind envisioned so many things ranging from just a lodged kidney-stone to an ectopic pregnancy about to rupture! Then amid the panic, pain and nausea, a clear thought cut through the chaos.

Either God will see me through this or He will see me home.

While some may consider this a tad morbid, I found it very comforting... I'm not alone no matter what happens. This actually calmed me down.

While I was still in pain, nauseous and dizzy, I was also able to joke a bit with the ER staff. With a smile or a chuckle, I was able to go through the battery of tests and get me home safe to recover. I'm glad they now have a replacement for the liquid barium to drink before the CT-Scan. That stuff was NASTY, and the nurse couldn't stop laughing every time I compared the stuff they had me drink to the "liquid sidewalk." :D

Never alone, no matter where we roam.
Safe in His arms.
Thanks!

- ESA

Archives (Poem)

I wanted to post this blog yesterday, but never got the chance until now. While gathering stuff for Saturday morning's yard sale, something I wrote many years ago came to mind. When I was tasked with organizing 75 years of archival items for a nursing home's anniversary celebration, I wrote the following poem:
Archives

When all the tomorrows
Become the yesterdays,
The shared laughter
Of long, long ago
Has become tears of loss,
And then faded away
To the dusty nothingness
Of the archives.

Photographs, files, notes
That were put aside
To make more room for
The coming todays,
That became yesterdays.
Now, they sit together
In the dusty nothingness
Of the archives.

One far-of, future day,
Someone will question
Of where, when and how
It all came to be.
They will open the door
And ask the residents
Of the dusty nothingness
Of the archives.

Treasured clutter of the past.
Memories that last.
Archives

-ESA

Friday, July 10, 2009

Little Blessing though the Pain

This afternoon, I had a pretty intense migraine while at work, the kind where light, sound, smells, touch and thinking HURTS. Even my GI tract was adversely affected. I still needed to get a counter-proposal letter and two invoices (short 10-day terms) out before leaving the office, and needless to say that was getting harder the longer my migraine lasted.

But I was also blessed in that I didn't have to go through this alone. While I was working through this headache, I had an online friend who kept me going with a blend of practical advice and teasing which helped keep my spirits up. He also listened to this overgrown baby's griping, which I do when not feeling well. :P

When we go through the trials and troubles of life (small like today or great), God also places in our lives something to help us through these times. Sometimes we're lucky that we see and acknowledge them. Sometimes we're blinded by our pain and suffering that we don't see them. There are even times we blindly walk by them without experiencing their benefit. :(

Today I'm glad I not only benefited from my friend's support, but also was fortunate enough to see it for the Blessing it was.

Whose life will you change with your words or works?
Whose little blessing can you be?
Be a friend.

- ESA

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Layoffs --> Executive Bonus

I nearly missed writing today's blog, so in the minutes after midnight before I go for the night's sleep, I jot down the words I mean for this blog to keep.

A friend of mine called with some sad news. Like mine, the company where he works had layoffs this week. Unlike mine, his company could actually afford to keep all their employees. Here is what he told my husband and I....

The company where he's employed is doing well - profitable in fact, but just not as profitable as the executives had projected. So what did they do? They laid off employees without warning and told the remaining employees that everyone left would have to take a week's furlough -- unpaid / without using vacation days or any other paid time out. Why? This way the company can make it's projected gross earnings and the executives could all earn their bonuses.

How many out there find that wrong?

With the several thousands of dollars that these executives are going to receive, the company could have kept all those they laid off and never required the rest to cut their income. Who knows how this will affect the non-executive employees? How many will find it difficult putting food on the table as they struggle through their meager savings (or none at all) while they look for a new job in a very poor economy? How many will loose their home or car?

Did the executives that made this decision even CONSIDER this or were they so focused on the bottom line -- in filling their own bloated pockets and overinflated egos -- that they did not care for their fellow man?????

This isn't even some stranger in a foreign country or even different state - these were people who worked at the same place as those they canned. Maybe they just went right to their posh offices and the corporate structure is such that the people who were impacted the most never got to enter those posh offices with all the layers of management between them.

Where I work, the company's biggest customer filed for bankruptcy and we lost 90% of our revenue. We didn't have to let people go to boost our bottom line; we had to let people go so the company could survive. Granted, we are a smaller company, but we also care about our employees. We knew exactly how such a decision would impact them each personally... How one was facing issues with paying for a new deck as his existing one was being wretched away from his home due to ground settlement. We were thrilled when we heard from another that her other part-time job needed to give her more hours so things worked out for her. Both the President and founder (his dad) of our company have actually brought THEIR salaries down to $0 per month (no bonuses or dividends either) until the company starts to see significant profits again, which means nothing through the rest of this year and possibly well into next.

What a difference a leader makes.

Not all CEO's and executives are greedy bastards (excuse the language) but there are plenty who are. In these hard times, I've heard cases both heinous and noble. I pray that God guides many more hearts as we continue to struggle on a global scale to set the economy right. I know it's wrong to wish ill on anyone, even those we see as deserving it. So instead I will wish that the light shining from those noble acts of the CEO's who really do care about those in their employ -- those whose hard labors have earned them their position, benefits and pay -- shine bright and brilliant in this darkening world and light the right path for the others who need to look up from the bottom line to see what is right and wrong. For if this world continues to support those who only look to the bottom line and self-serving goals (individual or selective group), then this world is already lost. :(

May the hearts and the acts of the noble shine bright.
Not the bottom line in their sight.
Pray.

- ESA

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Smiles - Seen and Unseen

I often tweet or retweet these little messages on Twitter about sharing a smile. Many still do not realize the power that can be found in a smile.
  • It can pick you up.
  • It can say "I care."
  • It can say "I'm here for you."
  • It can say "I'm listening."
  • It can make you smile in return - even laugh.
A smile costs the giver nothing but a thought and a touch from the heart.

We've all seen those smiles that are just upturns of the corners of the mouth but never touches the eyes. A genuine sincere smile sets the eyes sparkling with the warmth of love and friendship.

And then there are the unseen smiles..... These are the times when someone reaches out to us and touches our hearts in a way that causes us to smile from the warmth and love in that touch. We do not see the smile. Sometimes it's an email or a phone call. Or just words on the screen over the internet. But we respond to that with a smile of our own and somehow know they smile too.

I had such a moment this morning. I was a bit down from a restless night of bad dreams and the rain that rolled through the area this morning. I was going to dive into my workload today - disheartened - and then I thought to check my @ messages on Twitter one last time....

That's when I saw this: "how u doing today my good friend" and a beautiful smile lit up my face.

The day is actually getting brighter outside too as the rain moves off. But more, my dark mood is dispersing with the clouds beause these little words touched my heart and told me that I'm not alone, that someone out there is not only a friend, but is thinking of me at that moment. That friend cared enough to send me a quick note.

He didn't even realize that I was in a bad mood. But just thought to take the time and say "hi." What a world of difference it made. When was the last time I took a moment and say "hi" to someone like that? One never knows just how much that little "smile" may effect somebody's day today.

Share that special touch of love and friendship.
Share that smile.
Today.

-ESA

Monday, July 6, 2009

Missed Blessing

There is this family that my husband and I befriended when they lived in our apartment complex. We would have dinner at each others homes and share many memorable BBQ's outside. We were the test subjects the summer when the wife and kids went back to visit family in India and the husband decided to learn to cook.

My husband tutored their kids. The wife and I would go out for walks or would sit on cold days and drink tea while we chatted. She even dragged my butt to yoga class gratis to see if I would like it. Her husband and mine were good friends too.

They moved from New England to Arizona four years ago. Since then we've traded holiday greetings and the occasional phone call, but it wasn't the same as seeing them practically every day.

Today they swung by the apartment complex unannounced while I was at the office. My husband was home and tried a few times to reach me by phone. The first time, I was out for a walk on a lunch break. The moment I got back to the office, I headed right into a meeting, not checking my voicemail. Then I was on a conference call. By the time I checked my messages they had come and gone.

I had missed them. :(

How many times do we miss opportunities because we're so caught up in our daily lives? How many times do we loose the chance to see those that mean so much? If I had taken one minute to check my voicemail, I would have had the chance to see my friends I haven't seen in four years.

Watch for missed blessings; they come in many forms.
They happen anytime.
Unannounced.

ESA

Sunday, July 5, 2009

New Start

I know I haven't written in a while. I could come up with dozens of reasons to type here, but I should simply say, I have not. As I try to re-start my daily blog, I hope once I get the first blog down the words will flow as readily as they did before.

This weekend I've come to realize something as I took some time to ponder things. The more I got the thanks, kudos, atta-girls, retweets, compliments and flattery on Twitter, the more I assumed it was all me - my work. If people wanted help with something or asked for an ear to listen, it was ME. That can inflate one's ego quite rapidly and give a girl a swelled head.

The more I believed it was me tweeting great things, getting followers on Twitter, helping others online and off, the more I puffed up my own ego as well. It was also when my ability to write my blog and stories, as well as say and do just the right things, rapidly declined.

The effectiveness of my words and actions deflated as rapidly as a ruptured balloon. Why? Because by relying on myself, I denied God's part in the whole thing. God was the One who gave me the words to say when I needed them, gave me the time/place/opportunity to be there for friends who needed an ear or a hand with something, gave me the ideas or skills I needed to do what was required of me. When I assumed I could do it all on my own, I started to drop the whole mess like a waitress on roller blades hitting a patch of grease and dropping a full table's worth of service - broken dishes et al.

That was pretty stupid.

How can I forgot? Why didn't I notice when my blogs became less frequent and then stopped altogether? Why didn't I notice when I haven't written a new story in months? Or even when my effectiveness to help others become significantly less, ending in more frustrations. :(

Sadly, I used excuses: I'm too busy at work; I'm too busy on Twitter; I'm too busy helping others... That last one was really pathetic, as the main drive behind helping others was fading day-by-day replaced by one heck of an ego trip. And that was wrong. :( But sadly, that was the one excuse I'd use so often, even telling myself that.

As I've seen in various quotes up and down Twitter, it's never too late to turn things around as long as there is breath in me. Each new day CAN be a new start. That's what I'm trying to do right now, a new start with this blog post. Sadly, it took me three days to actually sit down and type this.

But a visit to church today helped me find the strength I needed. Not my strength, the strength from God as He helps me work my way back to where I was a few months ago, letting Him inspire my words and works -- in a unison that is beyond words. Interestingly enough, nearby church-bells started to play this wonderful melody as I started this paragraph. Not chiming the hour (it's 6:30 pm) but actual melodies (it's on the second one now).

Shall I call this coincidence or let it touch my heart? I think I'll let it inspire me, moreso as I haven't heard any of the local church-bells do this before. I listen to the sounds peal under the clear sky as I struggle to let go of my overinflated ego.

Reaching with outstretched hand....
To the One that guides...
And Loves.

- ESA

Sunday, June 21, 2009

For My Dad (Video)

This is a video I made as a tribute for my dad.

Happy Father's Day to all the fathers, step-fathers, foster-fathers, father-figures, big-brothers and other male role models. :D

-ESA

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Puzzle (Story)

This was forwarded to me by email. Enjoy. :D

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A father wanted to read a magazine but was being bothered by his little girl, Shelby. She wanted to know what the United States looked like. Finally, he tore a sheet out of his new magazine on which was printed the map of the country. Tearing it into small pieces, he gave it to Shelby and said, 'Go into the other room and see if you can put this together. This will show you our whole country today.'

After a few minutes, Shelby returned and handed him the map, correctly fitted and taped together. The father was surprised and asked how she had finished so quickly. 'Oh,' she said, 'on the other side of the paper is a picture of Jesus. When I got all of Jesus back where He belonged, then our country just came together..'

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- ESA

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Happiness

Today, I've encountered three interesting statements about happiness. The first was sent to me. The second is my response to the first. The final one is my husband's response to hearing the first two.

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Happiness has nothing to do with pleasure. You feel pleasure when you want something and you get it. Or when you don't want something and you remove it. Pleasure is always relative. Happiness is absolute. Happiness is the understanding and acceptance of life as it is in this very moment as completely perfect, because every creation of God is perfect. The degree to which you do not accept life in all of the Divine forms is the degree to which you suffer.

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Happiness doesn't come from outside; it comes from inside. And once found and embraced, nothing that is outside can silence the song it sings within you.

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Pleasure is tied to events. Happiness is tied to being.

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Any others? Please feel free to add in the comments below. Thanks!

Be happy!
Happy!
Be!

- ESA

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Poem Presented by Proud Aunt (Poem)

This weekend I'm down in VA with family - a good sized gathering of siblings, my mom, nieces and nephews. One of my nieces (and god-daughter) takes after me and likes to write.

I wasn't at the house five minutes before she insisted on showing me her blog ("just like you have"). It certainly puts a smile on someone's face when a child looks to them as an example. :D

I may not have kids of my own to brag about, so I will brag a bit about my neice. She's only 13 and has a definate developing talent for words. She gave me permission to repost the poem she wrote yesterday here:

If You Could See
I imagine it
With no candle lit
No way to see
Sometimes you can't believe
There's so many reasons
Believe in You
Because in the dark
Hell or Heaven
He is there

- ESA

Friday, June 5, 2009

Catching Up

Good morning (at least it is here at this moment:D)!

I've been offline for nearly a week following a hard-drive failure on my work (and only) laptop. While the contingency plans I had in place ensured the functionality of my position at work, they did nothing in terms of keeping up on YouTube, Twitter and my blogs.

While I ponder that point, wondering if I should have contingencies for those, my mind brings around the first question when doing a contingency plan: What is important?

Interestingly enough, this is close to the topic I chose to write about in the story I was going to post on Sunday (when my computer died). Please take a moment and read it below.

I hope to have this blog up and running daily again too, but I'm still catching up at work as well as online.

I wish all a great weekend!

Live and Learn.
Laugh!
Life.

- ESA

Ant and Grasshopper (Story)

Anita Ant and Gabrielle Grasshopper were cousins from the same town. Like many in small towns, they attended the same schools when they were younger, worked at the same place and lived near each other. But the one major difference between these two cousins is what they did with their spare time.

Anita would often walk around the neighborhood, stopping whenever she spied a neighbor out on their front porch or yard, and would wave to them as they went past in their cars. She always had a friendly smile and an open ear for anyone she came across, friend or stranger.

Gabrielle – Gabbie to her friends – spent all her spare time in the electronic world. If she was out for a walk, she had her cell phone to her ear and chatted with someone a great distance away. She also spent a great deal of time chatting with people online from around the world. She had many good friends online, almost more than the entire population in the small town they lived in.

One Monday, Anita saw Gabbie walking past her cubicle on the way to the restroom, she smiled and waved. Gabbie just walked right by obviously caught up in the conversation on her cell phone and she never saw the wave. Anita thought about this a moment and realized it had been weeks now since she actually traded more than two words with her cousin. She knew her cousin wasn’t mad at her or intentionally ignoring her, but was just caught up in her friends outside the town.

At lunch, Anita grabbed her plastic container from the pile of similar containers in the lunchroom fridge. She noted that Gabbie had yet to get her lunch. So she grabbed her cousin’s container and walked it back to her cousin’s cubicle. Gabbie was there, chatting online with three people via IM and holding a fourth conversation with someone on her cell phone. Anita placed the container to one side of the keyboard and patiently waited for her cousin to take a break and say “hi.”

The half hour passed quickly, and Gabbie didn’t even look up. She did nab the container, pulled a plastic fork from her drawer and started to eat, however. At the end of the lunch break, Anita, sighed and hoped that this wasn’t going to be the way her cousin behaved all the time.

As the days of the week passed, Anita realized that Gabbie treated all her co-workers the same way. Anita would take the time to get to know them and exchange news or stories with them during the breaks, but Gabbie was so wrapped up in people elsewhere, she had even stopped smiling and nodding greetings to her coworkers that saw her everyday.

Week by week, Anita realized this was also the case with people in the neighborhood and even when they both attended family gatherings. Gabbie was there physically but mentally she was in cyberspace or deep in conversation with someone miles away. Anita finally decided to bring this to Gabbie’s attention.

One Saturday morning – VERY early in the morning, Anita went over to Gabbie’s apartment and pounded on the door. She could hear a half-asleep Gabbie fumble around inside the apartment. The door swung wide and a disheveled head stuck out. She opened her mouth but only got out a startled “What the – ” before Anita jammed the door open with her foot and shoved a hot cup of coffee into her cousin’s hand.

“We really need to talk, Gabbie.”

Gabbie’s eyes widened in panic. “Someone died?”

Anita smiled. “Not quite, but close. You haven’t talked to anyone around here in almost two months now.”

“Whaddaya mean? I see you at work everyday?”

“See, yes. But we haven’t spoken in ages. You’re always on your cell phone and computer. Heck, girl, I even hear you in the bathroom stall! You really should take a moment and talk to the people around here too.”

“You’ve GOT to be kidding me, Anita! People around here are boring! Heck, we’ve all gone to the same school, had the same teachers, live the same lives. You and I even have the same jobs, for crying out loud! I want to connect with people from different backgrounds, different countries, different lives! The world is too wide to just keep yourself in one small town your whole life.”

“I agree with you there, I do go out online from time to time too. But I don’t sacrifice my life here, my contacts with those in this town. Gabbie, you didn’t even talk to anyone at Jimmy’s birthday party last weekend.”

“I was there, wasn’t I?”

“Yes, but you talked on that cell phone the whole time. You even had the laptop out a good part of the day. Couldn’t you have at least stopped talking on that cell phone long enough to sing ‘Happy Birthday’ with the rest of us?”

“So you’re upset that I didn’t sing???”

“You’re not getting it at all, are you?!?” Anita’s temper flared. “I give up! I tried but I don’t think there’s a way I could get it through your thick skull!” Anita stormed out of her cousin’s apartment.

Gabbie, shrugged, sipped her coffee and opened the laptop to check her email and see who was online. Even at this hour, someone in the world was awake.

Weeks turned to months. Gabbie and Anita’s uncle passed away and willed the duplex he owned to the two girls. Both were thrilled as their rents were rising faster than their paychecks.

When the day came to move, most of the company where they worked and a good part of the neighborhood showed up at Anitia’s apartment early to help her move. With the number of hands and vehicles they had, they were able to haul all her belongings over in one collective convoy and had her settled within three short hours.

As they passed the pizza boxes, beer and soda, they noticed Gabbie pulling up before the duplex. Anita looked around, no one had offered to help her cousin move. She tried to encourage a few of her closer co-workers and neighbors to go out and help, but many offered excuses such as being tired or that they had other plans for the afternoon. Some offered no excuse at all but simply refused to help.

After thanking everyone for their help and encouraging them to eat up the pizza, Anita went out alone to help her cousin with the first of many carloads.

While the two girls were wrestling a mattress onto the car’s roof for the third trip, Anita huffed, “What happened to all the friends you have? Couldn’t any of them help?”

Gabbie laughed and nearly slipped off the curb from where she wrestled with a rope, “Are you kidding? They’re thousands of miles away! They’re not going to come out here just to help me move!”

Anitia looked sadly at her cousin, “Who else is there to help you then?”

Gabbie froze as if the thought had taken hold a moment. Then she shrugged and replied, “Well, I have you, so I guess I can always depend on my family. Right?”

Thus Gabbie didn’t change her ways. The months became years. One day on the way home from work Gabbie was talking on her cell phone and didn’t hear the nearby car out of control. The driver’s side door of Gabbie’s car was completely crushed. Her cell phone flew from her hand, completely destroyed upon impact.

Gabbie woke up in the hospital. No cell phone. No laptop. No visitors.

Doctors and nurses came and went. The administrator said that both her place of work and family had been notified.

Hour by hour the time dragged. The little TV on the wall near the foot of her bed was definitely not as stimulating as being connected to the world had been. She was lonely – very lonely.

Hours turned around the clock once, night was over and day started again. Gabbie jumped a little when the phone rang beside her bed. Anxious to connect to someone – anyone – Gabbie answered the phone, “Hello?”

“Hi, Gabbie, it’s Anitia. I’m so sorry to hear about the accident. I just got the message this morning when I got into work. I’ll swing by after hours today, OK?”

“Is anyone else coming?”

“From here, no. Has anyone else from the family called?”

“No. Nobody since I woke up here yesterday. You’re the first.”

“Oh….. Well, you should see all the virtual cards that are pouring into your inbox. IT had to ramp up the server.”

“Swell…” Gabbie replied sarcastically as she sadly looked around at the empty white walls around her bed. She could see past the curtain all the cards and balloons and flowers her roommate had.

“Well, I need to get back to work, I’ll see you later. Bye….”

“… Bye.” Tears welled up in Gabbie’s eyes. All the friends she had. Where were they? Why hadn’t anyone come yesterday? Why is Anita the only one coming today? Where are her family members? Her co-workers? Her friends from the neighborhood and school? The people she saw everyday?”

Wiping the tears from her eyes, she tugged the curtain between the beds a little to one side and smiled warmly to the stranger on the bed beside her. “Hi, there, my name is Gabbie Grasshopper. What’s yours?”

-ESA

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Chain of Love

Since I posted Friday's blog in the wee hours of Saturday morning, I guess it's only fitting that I post Saturday's blog in the wee hours of Sunday morning.

I just saw something beautiful unfurl on Twitter that I've seen a few times recently. But everytime I see it, I'm still awed by the wonder of it.

One of my newest followers is in a great deal of pain. I caught sight of his posts just as I was logging off to head to bed after a long day. They not only caught my eye but my heart, so full of pain, anquish and feelings of utter loss and aloneness. :(

I said a quick prayer to God and followed my heart. All it took was one quick message, and before my eyes a cascade of messages filled with Love and support flowed into his inbox.

No, he is not alone. None of us are. We're all interconnected in this world. And God is with each and everyone of us as well, and often touches our lives in ways we may never expect.

Sometimes all we need to do is hold out our hand and have the faith that another will grasp it with one and reach out with the other, forming a chain of Love and compassion.

We can all make a difference.

Reach out.
Grasp.
Love!

- ESA

Saturday, May 30, 2009

When Former Friends Try to Become Your Enemy

I was going to post this last night, but I lent my laptop to my husband after work, so I needed to wait until this morning to do so.

Yesterday, someone sent me a transcript of a chat with another who was once a very close friend of mine. In fact, this former close friend is the very same person of which I speak when I first started posting under this blog name. There was a point reached where he gave into the hatred and anger and I would not walk down that path at his side, so we parted ways.

It appears he is still bitter about that.

In the aforementioned transcript he told my other friend some of the things I shared with him, but used lies, half truths and twisted what was true in such a way to purposely skew the information. I could easily see he was trying to drive a wedge in my friendship with another. I've seen it very often in my life and in the lives of others. Why do some people do that? Why can people not be happy for others but follow the belief that "If they don't want me as a friend, no one else should be as well?"

Sadly, I'd still like to be his friend, I just will not walk down the same path into darkness and destruction, anger and hatred and cries for vengence against one and all... It's not in my nature. My heart still carries Love for him and he is in my prayers every day.

Further, he also told my friend that he'll be posting a video of him burning a bible soon. He's aware that I look at his YouTube account and that my friend and I speak, so I wonder if this is his way of saying "make sure she watches it!" I don't know if I'm just assuming way too much of my influence on things, but of late, he's been "bashing" all the things that he knew are close to my heart. Christ and my faith are always close to my heart and he's been bashing both more frequently.

At first impression, I thought I would be outraged upon hearing it, as that is the response I've seen in others. But I'm not. I'm saddened. Very saddened that things have come to this.

I'm also a bit bemused. Growing up any religion, one often hears the stories of persons being persecuted for their faith. If my assumptions are correct, here is a case of a faith being persecuted because of a person. Now I feel REALLY bad (but still have to chuckle over the absurdity of the situation).

Will I rebuke him or lead an army of followers to his video so he will "get it in the neck" as he put it in the chat? No. I will keep my peace and not forward my knowledge of the link to anyone. If he wants to shout in an empty room to the surrounding silent shadows, let him. Most people can see the emptiness in his exclaimations from the replies I've seen where he's badmouthed Christ elsewhere. So I choose not to stir the embers of a dying fire.

Why return hate for hate.
It only begets hate.
Love instead.

- ESA

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Tribulation

I've debated about whether or not I should write what I have. But some days you just have to follow what's in your heart, roll the dice and face what comes from doing so.

Tribulation is a subject on many minds and in many articles, movies and books of late. I'll try to be brief as possible on the subject (brevity is not my forte, so please bear with me. :D).

WHAT
Tribulation is considered by many as the "end times" or "end of the world". While it may be "the end of the world as we know it" as one song goes, the Tribulation is essentially a period of change -- as brutal as puberty can be -- but not the end of the world. It’s the end of one period and the start of another. Any change is turbulent. But the next era will be something of Peace and Wonder...

HOW
Pick a subject from a long list: earthquakes, hurricanes, tornadoes, strong/violent storms, tsunami's, cyclones, war, famine, pestilence / pandemic, meteor strike, volcanoes, cats and dogs living together... You can find any of these in places ranging from the bible to Blockbuster video, from the neighbors to the nightly news. So I need say no more here.

WHY
What I would like to point out is that it doesn't matter so much what happens, but how humanity responds to what happens. Humanity will grow / change once pushed to our limits. What if that push is on a much larger scale than an individual, family, company or community? What if we're pushed on a global scale? How BIG would that change be?

The other question is what would that change be? My belief is that if we looked to our own needs and developed a bunker mentality, this will only lead to isolation and a "get them before they get us" attitude that could spell the fall of humanity. :(

Or, we could reach out to each other – from next-door neighbors to others in communities around the world. It's been proven that the combined efforts of human beings bring greater results than the sum of individual efforts. What would happen if we expanded our efforts, joining hands with those around the world? What kind of change would that bring?

WHO
There's been much debate about Rapture as a means of escape from Tribulation. But from what I've researched, my conclusion is that if there is an escape clause somewhere, it's certainly NOT at the before Tribulation. There are six of seven seals broken before the 144,000 are sealed in Revelation. So that means there are some events that will happen before that point. In one of the Gospels, Christ mentions that, even though it's going to be a time of grave horrors, "it will be shortened due to the elect." That makes me think the elect will still be around on this mudball at the time or why would it matter...

For myself, suffice to say that I'd rather prepare my heart to go through Tribulation and meet Christ face-to-face on the other side with my head held high rather than saying "I believe" because it will give me a ticket out of the horrors.

WHERE
I believe we shall see many horrors, but not necessarily all in one place (unless the sun blows up then all points above are null and void (save the paragraph above, of course)). Considering we saw a 7.1 earthquake off Honduras today instead of LA, and nuclear war seems nearer in the Korean peninsula than the Middle East, anything is possible.



Let's see, we have Who, What, Where and How... what's missing...? Of course, the first question everyone asks...

WHEN
I don't know. I don't WANT to know. I'm a person that will fixate on a date and needlessly waste the time I have. I'll take it day-by-day, living like it's my last moments instead. In doing so, does it really matter when?

Also, something else came to mind on the subject. Clocks and calendars are man's creation to mark time – not God's. All said and done, it's in God's hands, no matter what we do, say or predict. But God does not see time as humanity does.

I believe the true timing of "when" is similar to one of those little puzzle games where you have to line up the holes to get the ball to drop through. In other words, a series of people and events must line up just right for things to happen. If a person is not there or something does not quite happen in "just the right way" or in the proper sequence, the ball is still "trapped" and the major events are delayed. There have been hypotheses that the "end times" may have happened already. But I believe these were the times when things started to line up but then something changed – perhaps a change in policy or way people handled the situation before them.

But when the time does fall into place and the BIG event happens, it will be a bumpy ride. But at the end is something and Someone wonderful. I think that's worth going through what may come our way.

WHAT CAN WE DO
The answer is also found in the good book: pray. Christ instructed people to pray that it does not happen in the winter (at a time when local food is short, shelter is desperately needed and transport is difficult). I don't hear many people preaching that one. Repent, yes. Believe, certainly. But pray that the end times don't come in winter? No. Why? It makes a LOT of sense to me. That's why it's in my prayers.

In addition, there's some common-sense stuff. The CDC and FEMA have many guidelines and has been trying to get people to read them. Prepare a grab-and-go bag. List your medications. Have the family become familiar with a fire-drill. What would you do if you know a storm is coming - stock up on batteries and essentials. That's stock-up not stockpile – there's a difference; hording is not helping unless you plan to share with the neighborhood. And a room full of supplies isn't useful if you've been evacuated from your home. Again, common sense and reasonable preparations are recommended.

Lastly, get to know those around you. If a major disaster hits, phone lines and other contact with the outside world will be cut temporarily. Even cell phones are worthless if the tower is out of power or taken down – or the switchboard overwhelmed as seen on 9/11. Face-to-face contacts will be the front line to recovery immediately after the disaster. Start now and get to know people and things will run a lot smoother if you find a friendly, familiar face rather than a stranger working beside you.

Well, I've tried to keep it short. I don't know who or how many will read this. But I hope some of the advice above will be taken going forward. Thanks for reading.

Prepare and pray
Not prey
Today

- ESA

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Little Something

I just got a letter from someone I know who is in prison. I've been writing to her, trying to keep her spirits up and even sent her a few of my stories. This is the first time she wrote me and I was surprised at how much my little notes and stories meant to her.

Sometimes the little things you do just to make someone smile can actually impact them strongly in ways you've never imagined.

Often we do a "little something" to help someone and walk away, continuing with our own busy lives. Rarely do we see the look on the face of the people we help, the tears of hope that shine in their eyes, or the light that gets rekindled deep within them. When we actually catch a glimpse of that, it's something wonderful.

Touch
And be touched
Deep inside

- ESA

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Mighter Than the Sword (Story)

(c) 1999

The aged dragon, Glaston, slowly approached the counter in a tavern. The toad behind the counter looked up and let his face split into a broad grin. Then he glanced to the table where Glaston’s companion waited, and the smile fell from his face.

Glaston chuckled and leaned across the counter, speaking low. “Don’t fret, Patrick, we’re not here to hassle you about last night. But we do have a preposition. Bring over three lunches and join us.”

Patrick hopped into the kitchen and was soon seated at the dimly lit corner table with Glaston and Hereclitus, the heir to the Principality. Patrick wisely remained silent until he was requested to speak.

Glaston leaned forward and said quietly, “We heard about what happened to your storyteller last night.”

Patrick’s large eyes flickered to Hereclitus.

The heir sat back calmly. “I don’t agree with my father’s actions – especially of late.”

Glaston continued, “What do you know about this, Patrick?”

Patrick drew a deep breath. “I know that Connor is always one to tell things like they are. Lately, he’s told stories about Prince Hendrick’s … ah…”

Hereclitus raised a brow and suggested, “Cruelties?”

“Yes,” he croaked, “Cruelties is a good word. Anyway, late last night after closing, members of the royal brigade stormed in here and hauled Connor away. None of us dared to follow, but his wife has been worried sick since then.”

Hereclitus’ eyes turned sad, “You may tell his widow that Connor’s … remains … are two miles from this village in the woods.”

Horror turned Patrick’s pallor a shade grayer.

Glaston cleared his throat. “As to this situation, you and Connor’s widow are the only two witnesses left alive. I prefer that the two of you tell folks that Connor just left the Principality and keep it at that.”

“But-”

“For the sake of peace. Do you realize what Prince Hendrick would do to this tavern – to this village – if he knew the truth was known?”

Patrick turned white and quickly drained his goblet.

Glaston continued, “You will, of course, need a new storyteller.”

Patrick eyed him silently.

“I propose you hold a storytelling competition. But I also ask that you open the contest to peasants.”

“Peasants? I have nothing against them, but others –”

“Please see that they are invited. Merewin and Mallory will help you. Oh, and I need Leoni as one of the judges.”

The toad was dumbfounded. “But, Lord Glaston, she hates peasants almost as much as –” he cut off abruptly, glancing to the heir.

“As much as my father,” finished Hereclitus. “Fortunately, my view is not clouded by such prejudice. Please do invite the peasants; I would like to see all the classes living in peace together.”

“Y-yes, My Lord Hereclitus,” Patrick croaked. He rose, bowed and quickly excused himself, taking his plate with him.

Hereclitus sighed as he picked up a utensil and turned to Glaston. “I just wish Mother would let me confront him,” he said contemptuously. “Then all this insanity would end. I’ve tried to stop this many times, but Mother intervenes. I love her too much to hurt her.”

“Perhaps she believes that you are too young to assume the coronet.”

“Am I, Glaston? You’ve been my tutor from the cradle.”

Glaston studied him with wise eyes. “Perhaps you are ready. Perhaps you are not.”

Hereclitus sighed again. “Why all the riddles and games, Glaston?”

Glaston smiled. “That’s part of the world you come from. You need to learn to play the game as well as lead the people.”

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The cat stepped out of her home in the poorer section of the village and witnessed soap bubbles drifting across her small backyard. She glanced over the short picket fence and spied her neighbors, Rose and Moustrie, doing their laundry.

With a friendly smile, she called, “Fine morning for laundry,” as she carried her pots down the back steps. “Did you hear about the storytelling contest?”

“We heard last night,” Rose replied. “I’m trying to convince our local celebrity here to enter it.”

“Commoners don’t really want peasants around,” Moustrie replied with a frustrated swish of her tail.

“I don’t see why you won’t at least try,” Rose bleated.

The gray-furred mouse flicked her ears back at the reprimand as she scrubbed at a stubborn stain. “A formal contest is different than just telling stories at Riverside Tavern,” she informed the ewe. “Besides,” she quipped and held up the skirt she was washing, “my reception locally isn’t all that good.”

Rose raised a brow at the mouse. “We’re wasting time doing this now,” she chided as she wrung out a blouse and hung it on the frayed wash line. “And, you won’t be serving tables while you’re telling the story today.”

Moustrie’s large ears sagged. “I just wish people would give me more credit as a storyteller,” she muttered as she rinsed and wrung out her skirt. “If I win the contest…”

“You’re just a dreamer,” mewed the cat as she set down her pots. She licked her paw and pressed a few graying strands of sweat soaked fur away from her green eyes. “They’ll never let a peasant win one of their contests.” With a dismissive swish of her tail, she rolled up her sleeves and started to scrub the baked-on grime from the well-used tin pots.

Rose’s brows came down and she purposely put her back to the feline. “If you don’t take this chance, Moustrie, you’ll be telling tales of woe for the rest of your life. This is a chance many of us would give our tail for!” She glanced up at the summer sun, “Tails! If we’re going to make it, we’ve got to leave now.”

Moustrie frowned. “But this outfit’s all wet; I need a better dress for the contest.”

“No time,” Rose said as she pulled Moustrie through the dark, narrow alley between the buildings. “Besides,” she called over her shoulder, “you might talk yourself out of it again.” Together, the two hurried up the bustling street toward the better part of the village.

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The upscale tavern, High Spirits, was clearly twice the size of Riverside Tavern. A bright coat of colored paint rather than simple whitewash covered the building, while a wooden sign with the carved images of a goblet and plate swung from a metal rod above the door. The pair paused in the deep shadow of the portico in front of an elaborately carved front door. Moustrie’s tail twitched as she poked her nose and whiskers around the slightly open door. “Look, Rose, the windows are colored glass and the walls – even the floor – are waxed beautifully!”

“And I’ll bet a pound of my winter wool that the food we smell is ten times better than what we serve too.”

The fur on the back of their necks rose as a low growl reached their ears. A burly black bear swung the door wide and emerged from the tavern. With a yelp, the pair leapt back as Brutis placed himself squarely in the doorway. “Can’t you read?” he snarled, pointing to the sign nailed beside the doorpost: NO UNESCORTED PEASANTS.

Moustrie shook her head, tucking her long tail down the back of her skirt. “No sir, we’re not schooled in letters.”

“Well, it says that –”

“Hold a moment, Brutis.” A well-groomed fox in good silks stepped out from behind the bear and squinted into the bright daylight. “Perhaps they’re here for the storytelling competition.”

Moustrie and Rose both nodded enthusiastically.

“Ah! Good, then we have at least two peasant storytellers.”

“Uh… no milord,” corrected Rose sheepishly, ducking behind her friend. “I’m just here for Moustrie.”

Disinterested, Brutis shrugged his broad shoulders and lumbered back inside.

A vixen’s head appeared over the fox’s shoulder, just before the door shut behind them. “Who are they, dear? What’s the fuss?”

The fox stepped aside and turned to his wife. “My dear, this is Moustrie and…”

“Rose,” the mouse supplied for her friend.

“…Rose. Moustrie will be joining our storytelling competition.” Then he faced the pair. “I’d like to present to you the Fair Lady Merewin, my beautiful wife and a member of the court of their Royal Highnesses, Prince Hendrick and Princess Galatea.”

The pair stepped back, eyes wide in awe. Then they quickly curtsied deeply, dropping their eyes.

Merewin stepped gracefully past him into the light. Rich folds of cloth enfolded her shapely figure, while finely cut jewels sparkled in the sun. “You girls don’t have to be that formal; we’re not in court here.” Then she frowned at her husband, “You’ll also have to pardon Lord Mallory, his title goes right to his – Tails and Whiskers! Is that the best garb you have?”

Moustrie’s ears drooped and she looked at the vixen sorrowfully. “I was doing my laundry, My Lady, and there was no time to change clothes.”

Mallory nodded. “That would explain the water stains. You can tell your story last; that will give you time to sun yourself in the garden out back.”

Merewin agreed, “You don’t want your appearance to distract from the story.” She gestured for Moustrie to follow and was about to open the door when Glaston stepped out from the portico’s shadows.

“Allow me, My Lady Merewin.” With as little difficulty as a younger dragon, Glaston swung the thick, heavy oak door wide.

“Ah! Glaston, I didn’t see you standing out here. Did you meet Moustrie and Rose?”

Glaston nodded eloquently. “Glad to make your acquaintances.”

The vixen then introduced him to pair, “Glaston is the Royal Heir’s tutor.” Gracefully stepping into the tavern, Merewin gestured for Moustrie to follow her through the crowded common-room to the back door.

Half-blinded, Rose paused just inside the doorway, letting her eyes adjust.

Glaston placed a clawed hand lightly on her shoulder and asked, “Have you eaten?”

Rose jumped at the unexpected familiarity and meekly bleated, “No, My Lord, not since breaking fast this morning.”

“There are complimentary meals with the contest.”

“Complimentary?” Rose asked, stumbling over the unfamiliar word.

“A free meal, then. The tavern-keeper adds it to Lord Mallory’s tab.”

“For everyone?”

“No, the meals are for the storytellers,” he explained in a deep, persuasive baritone, “but I’m sure Moustrie wouldn’t mind sharing a large meal with you.”

“No, she wouldn’t,” Rose agreed quietly, unnerved by the noble’s attention.

“You need not fear me, Rose. I mean you no harm. I, too, am here for moral support.” He gestured to the young, richly dressed griffin at the front table. “Hereclitus is on the panel of judges for this competition.”

“The Heir is here!” she bleated and clapped a hand over her mouth, eyes very wide and fearful.

“Be at peace, Rose. Hereclitus is not his father’s son.”

The sheep studied Hereclitus for a long moment and then studied Glaston as closely as one of her station dared. “If I may be so bold…”

“…to ask a question of me?”

Rose nodded nervously.

“Go ahead.”

“Why…” She swallowed and looked around quickly. “Why are the nobles interested in a commoner’s contest?” she bleated out quickly.

Glaston raised a brow at the question.

Just as quickly, she apologized, “Forgive me, My Lord, my curiosity gets the better of me at times.”

Glaston studied Rose a moment, looking deep into her brown eyes. “No need to forgive when no offence was received. And curiosity is a great path to learning.” He paused, noting her deepening embarrassment. “You and your friend must be hungry.” He gestured for Rose to lead the way to the counter where the tavern-keeper stood. “Tell me, how well do you know Moustrie’s family?”

Rose shrugged, lulled into a strange calmness, and started to weave her way across the room. “She hasn’t much family left in this village. Moustrie and her sister both work at Riverside Tavern with me. Her brothers left to find work elsewhere, and both of her parents are gone now.”

As they reached the counter, the bovine tavern-keeper eyed Rose suspiciously. She ducked her head meekly and said, “I was told there was food for the storytellers.”

The ox was about to send her away until he spied Glaston just behind her. With a scowl, he bellowed the order into the kitchen and added another mark in the book.

As they waited, Glaston quietly asked, “Her parents are gone? Do you mean they left the village too?”

Rose shook her head as she reached for the goblet of wine that the ox had just set down. “Oh no, My Lord, they died … seasons ago.”

“A shame. How did they die? Was it an accident? An illness, perhaps?”

Rose shook her head. “Just old age.”

“Old age?” Glaston’s voice betrayed his surprise. He turned his head away, muttering, “Have so many years passed?” Then he shook his head and faced the counter. The ox was about to set down the plate – piled high with sliced meat, fresh baked bread and steaming vegetables – when Glaston smoothly reached forward and took it. “Thank you, Tavernkeep.”

Upon seeing the generous portions Rose was slack-jawed, but her shoulders and tail sagged when Glaston didn’t pass her the plate. She remained silent, but looked at his with pleading eyes.

The elderly dragon smiled, “If you have no objectives, I’d like to help carry the food out to your friend in the garden.”

“You … help me? But I’m a peasant!”

Glaston chuckled lightly. “That shouldn’t matter.” He turned and indicated that she should lead the way outside.

Rose was momentarily blinded when she stepped from the tavern into the bright sunlight. Moustrie waved to her excitedly. “Over here, Rose. Oh! Hello, My Lord.”

Glaston handed the plate to Moustrie. “I must return to my companion now. I’ll see you inside.” He turned and re-entered the tavern, leaving the two alone in the garden.

Moustrie sat dumbfounded and looked at Rose with wide, questioning eyes.

“I know,” Rose replied, “but I’m not about to argue with a noble. Are you going to eat that before it gets cold?”

Moustrie picked up a spoonful of vegetables and popped it into her mouth. “Wow! This is much better!” she exclaimed with a joyful swish of her tail.

“Told you,” Rose mumbled around a bite of the warm, soft bread. The two friends exchanged information between mouthfuls. Rose related what happened inside, omitting the fact that the royal heir was a judge; she didn’t want to upset Moustrie.

Moustrie, in turn, went over the competition details that Merewin gave her.

Rose took another swallow of the wine. “You mean you’ve got to make up a whole story based on what they ask? Can you do that?”

Moustrie nodded eagerly. “I think so. If they ask for a love story, I tell them one.” She wiped the crumbs from her muzzle with the back of her forepaw. “It can be a story that I already know.”

Just then the back door opened and a gopher poked his head out. “You’re just about up, Moustrie. You’d better get inside and be ready.”

They quickly gathered the dishes and went inside, blinking into the darkness interspersed with pools of colors from the windows. The room was quiet as everyone listened closely to the buck storyteller’s words. The gopher gestured for Rose to return the dishes to the tavern-keeper and led Moustrie to the front of the room, pausing just behind the judges.

Moustrie was more nervous than ever before and started trembling. “You’ll do fine,” came a deep-voiced whisper to her large ears. She glanced over her shoulder and glimpsed Glaston sitting in the shadow of a supporting beam just behind the judges’ table.

“…And when their eyes met, they both could look deep into each other’s soul. Tears welled up in joy; at last they found each other. Thus ends the tale of Nora and Jayson,” the stag storyteller finished with a flourish and bow to the judges.

As Mallory led him away, Merewin brought Moustrie before the judges: a boar, a toad, a lioness and a griffin. “This last contestant is Moustrie,” she announced. “Moustrie, this is Bannon, Patrick, Leoni and Hereclitus,” she indicated each of the judges in order.

Moustrie nodded her head to each in acknowledgement, but all the faces were new to her and she was too nervous to register any of the names.

With a graceful sweep of her tail, Merewin strolled to the chair that Mallory held for her, leaving Moustrie alone before the judges.

Leoni crossed her arms, leaned back in her chair and muttered, “Why is there a peasant in this contest?”

Glaston pitched his voice to her feline ears only. “Perhaps they want to bring nobles, commoners and peasants to the same level.”

Leoni’s ears flattened and she grimaced in disgust. She was about to reply but realized that the speaker was a noble.

By then Bannon had finished writing comments and checked the score-sheet on the table before him. “Moustrie? Ah, good. Leoni,” he said turning to the she-lion, “it’s your turn to decide – and please – not another mushy love story.”

“As you wish.” Leoni studied Moustrie as though she was an insect found in a favorite dish. The lioness grinned mischievously and said, “Then the story shall be this: a tale of true friendship and sacrifice between a noble and a peasant.”

Moustrie’s tail swished, and her forepaw rose to her muzzle in thought as her mind pulled a plot line together.

“Oh, and it must be a true story,” Leoni added as she leaned forward and casually raked one of her long claws along the table top.

Moustrie’s ears and tail drooped and her gaze fell to the floor.

A murmur rippled through the room.

Patrick rolled his eyes rafterward then sent a meaningful glance toward Bannon beside him.

The boar nodded and turned to the lioness. “Perhaps you misspoke. So seldom do nobles and peasants interact that closely; this is a difficult story to tell.”

The feline purred as she leaned back in her chair with a daring, devilish grin. “I spoke correctly. If she knows such a story, let’s hear it. If not, she’s out of this contest.”

Hereclitus was about to speak when Glaston hissed, “Let it be; let’s see how this plays itself out.”

Moustrie stood silent in front of the judges, her mind racing. Then an old story that her mother told her rose from her memory. “I… I know a story,” she quietly said, raising her eyes to the crowded common-room. She lifted her head confidently with an almost daring look in her eye. “I’d like to tell it.”

Murmurs rose to peak, then silence settled. All eyes were locked on her, and all ears were swiveled toward her. Leoni’s ears flattened along her head, her teeth bared in a silent snarl, and her full set of claws carved deeply into the tabletop. Merewin and Mallory exchanged puzzled glances and put their heads together, whispering. Bannon and Patrick exchanged smug smiles, then the boar gestured. “Proceed then.”
- - -

“Two generations ago, there was a peasant mouse named Seana who lived in a village not far from a great, deep wood. Oftimes when she was done with her work in the local tavern, she’d spend her free time in the afternoon exploring the woodlands. One day, she spied a young dragon there. Not quite sure how to approach this noble, she hid herself and watched him day after day.

“Some days, the dragon occupied himself by creating marvelous little creatures from folded paper, which he later gave to friend and stranger alike or left behind for someone to discover later. On windy days, the dragon was seen in a large clearing. Children’s laughter filled the air as he patiently taught them – noble, commoner and peasant alike – to make colored paper constructions dance like butterflies on the breeze.

“At other times, when people would wander alone and disheartened into the woods, there the dragon would be, ready to listen to their troubles and aid them anyway he could. And whenever people needed a safe haven, the dragon opened his home to them. As Seana witnessed all this, she learned that nobility could be courteous and kind to those stationed below them.

“A pawful of years had passed before the mouse gained the courage to approach the dragon in the woods. But when she did, she knew she had nothing to fear from him, and a strong friendship developed between them. The dragon taught her many things: how to open her eyes and see the world around her without prejudice; to think before acting; to understand the consequences of making a decision and to stick with that decision once made. She grew in confidence of her own capabilities and passed this wisdom to her husband and children. Seana also told the dragon much about her family in the village, and the years passed pleasantly.

“One day, a young griffin – just about the dragon’s age – came to the woods. Though the dragon would have welcomed him, the griffin used an illusion to disguise himself as a lion. The dragon, at this time, was busy teaching pages the proper handling and respect for weapons.

“The griffin drew his saber, boldly called his challenge and charged the dragon. The children panicked and scattered, but Seana found the courage to unsheathe her small utility knife and help her dragon friend. The griffin sought to dispatch her right away so he could focus on his fight with the dragon. The blow came fast, but the dragon was even swifter. Lightning-quick, he threw himself between his friend and the griffin’s blade.

“The move was hurried and miscalculated. The griffin’s saber slid along the dragon’s sword with the keening sound of steel on steel. Then the saber sprung from the tip of the sword and bit deeply into the dragon’s side.

“The blow didn’t kill the dragon outright, but his strength ebbed quickly from him. With the last of his reserves, the dragon slashed at the head of his attacker. The illusion broke as the griffin cried out in pain; a red line of blood dampened his facial feathers.

“When the dragon drew back in surprise, the griffin slashed across the dragon’s torso, trying to gut his victim under his protective plates. Holding his gaping side, the dragon collapsed into a growing puddle of blood.

“Seana squeaked a battle cry and scurried between the dragon and his attacker.

“With a graceful sweep of his saber, the griffin sent her blade flying freely through the air. Then he circled her, playing a dangerous game of cat and mouse.

“Thinking quickly, Seana seized a large rock at her feet – as big as her head – and positioned it shoulder high to throw it at the griffin.

“Not so fast, mouse” he snickered and neatly sliced open her throat.

“She collapsed and the rock fell from her forepaws and struck the dragon’s side with a crack that sounded like breaking ribs.

“With a tremendous groan, the dragon’s eyes fluttered close.

“Ready to deliver the final blow to the dragon, the griffin paused when he heard someone approaching them. Since the dragon’s pallor was death white, apparently beyond recovery, the griffin quickly fled the scene.

“What the griffin didn’t realize was that the dragon had carried a vial of water from the unicorn pool in his pouch. The falling rock had struck the vial, breaking it open. It took some time for the water to seep through the lining and into his wounds but it healed him sufficiently to live. Sadly, by the time the dragon awoke, the water was gone and it was too late to save his friend. Pale and weak, he gently gathered her in his arms and brought her into his home.

“Seana’s family sought her when she didn’t return that afternoon, but they were unable to locate her. However, late that night the dragon slipped unnoticed into the poorer part of the village and brought her body home to her family. Once inside, he revealed his identity and told them what happened in the woods. Then he slipped out and no one has seen him since.

“For two generations, this story lived, passed from parent to child down through Seana’s family. And it is this very story that I share with you this day. Thus ends the tale of Seana and the dragon.”
- - -

Stunned silence filled the room, and Moustrie trembled in anticipation as she studied the judges’ faces. Bannon grinned proudly as he scribbled something down on the papers before him. Patrick sat back, sipping wine and nodding his approval. Leoni glared silently at Moustrie. Hereclitus looked… confused, as though he was trying to understand a complicated puzzle. Merewin and Mallory had their heads close, speaking in hurried whispers.

Bannon cleared his throat and said, “Well, considering the difficulty level, I believe we have our winner.”

“WHAT!” roared Leoni, leaping to her feet, haunches rising and teeth bared. “That’s got to be a lie! No noble would sacrifice his life for a peasant!”

Bannon also rose, spines bristling. “You yourself placed the restriction that the story must be true.” He turned to Moustrie, “It is true, is it not?”

“Yes sir,” Moustrie answered proudly, “It is, every word.”

“How do you know this story?” inquired Patrick curiously.

“Seana was my grandmother. My mother was old enough to remember when the dragon brought her home.”

“Lie!” growled Leoni. “A savage lie! There’s been no dragon living in our woods! Why would there be?”

With her own teeth bared and ears flung back, Merewin snarled at Leoni. “There was such a dragon, long ago. If Seana was Moustrie’s grandmother, there would have been a solitary dragon living there. We have records of him in court.”

Hereclitus’ head snapped up. “Then who was this griffin?”

Rumors, questions and guesses sent up such a ruckus in the common-room that everything happened quickly. Bannon removed his notes from the table before Leoni could shred them. Merewin pulled Moustrie into the kitchen, but not before she noticed Glaston leading a very upset griffin out the front door.

A moment later, Mallory dragged Rose into the kitchen with him. He glanced over his shoulder indicating the rising noise level in the common-room. “Singed Fur! You sure stirred them up out there. That was a good tale. Your grandmother, you say? Tell us more about it.”

“That’s all I know, honest!”

“It’s all right, dear. You did nothing wrong,” Merewin said as she patted Moustrie’s trembling hands. “In fact, I think you’ve won the contest.”

“You did it!” Rose cried and hugged Moustrie enthusiastically.

Just then, Patrick peered around the door. “Ah!” he croaked and hopped into the kitchen. “There you are. I needed to speak with you before you left.”

Mallory held up his hand. “Moustrie still has one more requirement to fulfill.”

Patrick’s eyes narrowed. “I thought the competition was over.”

“I’m obliged to invite Moustrie to entertain the court and the ruling family with the story.” Mallory exchanged meaningful glances with Merewin, and she held her tongue. He faced the storyteller. “You’ll be guests of nobility this evening. Will you honor us?”

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The room blazed with gold, silver and sparkling gems. Food was prepared and arrayed in the finest fashion. Wine chilled in buckets of snow brought back from the distant mountaintops by the fleetest feet. Moustrie hungered at the tantalizing scent of the bounty set on tables along one side of the feast hall. She absently fingered the simple dress she wore, quite out of place in all this glamor.

She hadn’t budged from the corner where she stood since Merewin brought her here – that was two hours ago. Lady Merewin and Lord Mallory had disappeared for a short time and returned in their decadent courtly garb. Jewels sparkled from both their outfits in the bright candlelight as the two foxes intermingled with the other members of court. By now, many nobles, lords and ladies were feasting, catered by silent yet swift servants. Moustrie glanced nervously to the high table where three vacant chairs sat in the radiance of polished plates and sparkling goblets.

Just then, a blare of trumpets announced the arrival of the Prince, Princess and their son and heir, Hereclitus. The entire assemblage rose as one and faced the ruler’s private entrance. Hendrick, a proud griffin, stroke forward confidently. His satin tunic and cape were trimmed with gold threadwork, while a finely-crafted golden coronet circled his head. With a delicate hand upon his arm, Galatea, the beautiful and well-loved griffin Princess, strolled gracefully beside him. Both her courtly garb and smaller coronet matched the Prince’s. Behind them, Hereclitus followed. His bearing wasn’t overly proud; he walked confidently and smiled warmly at their guests.

At first Moustrie watched the procession in awe; this was the first time she had ever seen the Principality’s rulers. Suddenly, she gasped when she recognized Hereclitus. He was one of the judges in the storytelling competition. He’s the heir? She started trembling and fought the urge to flee. Many tales of horrible things done to peasants by this family came to mind. Did I say something wrong when I told the story?

Merewin moved swiftly to the high table, kneeled and spoke with the ruling family.

When Galatea raised her glass goblet, a respectful silence dropped like a muffling blanket in the hall. “I hear we have a storyteller who will honor us with the tale that won a competition today. Please, Lady Merewin, bring her out.”

Malevolent whispers hissed across the feast hall when Merewin pulled Moustrie from the shadows. Moustrie’s eyes pleaded with Merewin, but the vixen told her in hushed tones, “Have no fear; you have friends here.”

Hendrick cried, “A peasant? What game are you playing, Merewin?”

Mallory stood up, bowed and replied, “If your highness would just listen to the wondrous tale that she has told this afternoon, you will hear the treasure we’ve found. She has a true story about a noble’s great deeds that I’m sure none of us has ever heard before.”

“A noble’s great deeds, eh? Very well, tell the mouse to get on with it.”

Before her first words were out, the murmurs of other conversations nearly drowned Moustrie’s story out. But the tale had to be told, so she strained her vocal chords, speaking her loudest and practically shouting at the royal couple who listened half-heartedly, engaged in their own conversations.

When she reached the point where the griffin disguised himself, Hendrick cocked his head and frowned. Then he signaled to a pegasus sitting in the room who rose and walked to another table, roughly nudging Moustrie out of his way.

Moustrie stumbled a step forward and her monologue stopped abruptly. Humiliated, tears threatening in her eyes, she swallowed her pride and continued. At another signal from Hendrick, the same pegasus rudely shoved the storyteller to the floor as he returned to his seat. Tears welled in her eyes, sparkling in the candlelight and leaving damp streaks down her furred cheeks.

Hereclitus slammed his goblet on the table and rose. All in the room turned as one to eye him. “Moustrie came a long way to tell you all something very important – something about our history. It should behoove you all to hear it.”

Hendrick’s eyes narrowed as he smashed his own goblet down, shattering it and staining the tablecloth with expensive red wine. “And what would a peasant know about our history,… Son?”

Galatea replied quietly, “Dear, this storyteller has lived in our Principality her whole life. Since you are from another realm, you may not have learned all of our history. It would be nice to hear some of the old stories again.”

Hereclitus studied his father with renewed interest. “Another realm?”

“You contemptuous upstart!” Hendrick snapped at Hereclitus. “You’re not yet Prince of this realm!”

Galatea restrained Hendrick’s arm and gently pulled the Prince back into his seat. “Now dear, we must not embarrass our guests with your temper.”

After a long moment, Hereclitus also took his seat.

The Princess nodded to Merewin. “Please have your storyteller continue.”

Merewin nodded to Moustrie who shook so bad she could not speak. Mallory strolled over to her and gave her a drink from his own goblet. “Calm yourself,” he whispered, “We can’t turn back now. You must finish your story.”

Moustrie drew a deep breath and continued her story under the suddenly rapt attention of all. Mallory stood by her side until confidence grew in her voice once again. Moustrie realized something in the story triggered this argument and tried to portray the details as best as she could.

When she told how the griffin dispatched Seana, Hendrick leapt to his feet, wings extended as he seethed in rage. “You lie! How can you know all this, mouse? No one witnessed this! It was years before you were ever born!”

Hereclitus’ eyes narrowed and Galatea’s eyes widened with horror.

Moustrie couldn’t take any more and ran weeping from the feast hall. Hereclitus quickly signaled to the guards to let her go.

Galatea grabbed Hendrick’s arm but he yanked it away. “Tell me you didn’t,” she cried, tears streaming down her face. “Tell me you did not kill the dragon in the woods.”

Members of the court exchanged a few glances and a few discretely drew their blades ready for action.

“Of course not,” he replied, suddenly remembering there were others in the hall. “It is all lies. We all know that the dragon left the realm when you sought to wed him.”

“Moustrie’s words are TRUE!” rang a clear, deep voice from a shadowed corner of the room. Glaston stepped into the light and strode purposely toward high table. “The story was about that mouse’s grandmother who was a dear friend of mine.”

“It couldn’t be,” snapped Hendrick. “That dragon was my age and you’re far older.”

“Am I?” asked Glaston as his image flickered to that of a younger dragon, then returned just as quickly back to the aged figure.

“No! It can’t be! I killed you! Gods of Thunder! And I let you help raise my son?! Begone spirit! She was only a mouse and you were my competition for the coronet.”

Confused and shocked, Galatea reached toward Glaston. “But why?” she sobbed.

Hendrick furiously backhanded her across her face, causing her to fall to the floor.

Hereclitus rose to intervene, but Galatea waved him back. The feast hall echoed with the sounds of chairs scraping back, as court members rose from their seats.

“How else would I have won you and the coronet?” Hendrick snapped at his wife. “That fool would have won the courtesy contest your father held.”

“But I loved him! That’s why my father arranged the contest thus. How could you?” She got up to hit him with her fists, but he struck her down again.

Hereclitus was in her place in a heartbeat, and the other members of the court flocked behind him with their blades sparkling in the candlelight.

Hendrick scowled at them. “I am still in power here.”

“Not anymore,” Hereclitus replied. “The power of the throne is the people who back it. You are alone and shall be exiled for your actions,… Father.”

“Traitors!” Hendrick squawked, “Traitors, one and all!” He turned and fled the room with a mob at his heels.

Hereclitus remained and helped his mother to her feet. Then he turned to his tutor and studied the aged dragon. “You’re not a ghost.” He paused, weighing his next words. “Why didn’t you tell me who you were?”

Glaston dropped the illusion so all could truly see him. “You might have believed that I wanted your cornet, which I do not. But I did want Hendrick off the throne, and I had to wait until you were old enough to assume its responsibilities.”

Galatea stared in disbelief. “You are alive? And you never let me know? Why? I loved you!”

Glaston stepped back a bit, “I cared much for you too, Galatea, but you were the only heir to your father’s coronet. And the court and all its trappings,” he added with a broad sweep of his arm, “were not for me.”

Hereclitus weighed these answers and said, “I shall not forget what you have taught me.”

Glaston smiled. “I must be off; there’s one part left unfinished.”

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Moustrie made it back to the village by foot and met Rose and Patrick as they stepped out of the tavern. Rose saw Moustrie’s tears and ran to her friend’s side. “Tails! What happened, girl?”

“Terrible… so terrible…” was all Moustrie could squeak out between sobs.

Patrick draped a comforting arm over her shoulders, trying to add his support. “Lousy reception, eh?” he croaked. “Well, we’ve got better news.” He grinned broadly. “For one, I’ve just hired your friend, Rose, to wait on our tables.”

“Our?” Moustrie sniffled.

“You don’t think that thick-headed ox owns the whole joint, do you? Who do you think runs things?”

Moustrie smiled a little, feeling the warmth from the toad’s open personality. “That’s great, Rose; we’ll miss you at Riverside Tavern.”

“There’s more,” Rose added as she bounced on her toes.

“More?”

Patrick’s face split into a wider grin. “Our former storyteller has left the Principality and consequently our employ. And quite frankly, with him gone, you’re the best storyteller in the realm. I’d like to hire you too.”

“You want me to tell stories and wait on tables here?”

“Your talent is far too valuable for that,” he corrected. “You just tell your stories and keep our patrons entertained.”

“I say it’s a splendid idea,” came a deep, persuasive baritone from the dark. Glaston, once again the aged dragon, emerged into the pool of light before the tavern.

“Ah! Lord Glaston, what are you doing out alone tonight?”

“I only wanted to ensure that our storyteller keeps telling her stories. Remember,” he said turning to Moustrie with a wink and a gentle smile, “a sharp blade may kill many, but only the truth can bring whole realms down.” Then he turned away and faded into the darkness.

- ESA