Showing posts with label Trust. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Trust. Show all posts

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Planting the Seed (Story)

The early morning sun rose gloriously as two walkers strolled down a quiet New England Main Street.
As they passed a new eatery, the woman grinned mischievously when she read the name: Mustard Seed Cafe
She sipped her coffee and commented, “That sign reminds me of something. Maybe something you said once, about a seed....” 
The man laughed, white teeth showing through his beard. “And what did you take away from that one?” 
She glanced about, looking for something to inspire a witty reply. “Wasn't there a parable involved...?” 
A little bird dove to the sidewalk before them, picked at the concrete block a moment, and then fluttered away. 
“No,” she admitted with a wry grin, “The parable in mind involved seed being tossed in different places, each failing save the seed that hit fertile grown and produced hundredfold or something like that.” 
He chuckled nodding, “...something like that. So what about the mustard seed?” 
She grinned as she took another sip. “Little seed becomes big plant. Right?” 
His deep brown eyes took on a blend of challenge and mischief, “Maybe you can write a story about it?” 
She smirked, “Yeah, right.” 
He gestured expansively with his arm, “You are a writer; you were given that gift. Write a story about it. Maybe then you'd understand it better.” 
She took a good swallow of her coffee, while she wrapped her mind around the challenge, knowing there was something there that maybe DID make a good story. As the story shifted to her mental back burner, the conversation changed, covering a broad range of topics. 
Before she knew it, they arrived at the topic she needed to broach. Part of her shyly wanted to hold back and digress, but another part knew this is why she asked her companion to walk with her this morning. She really needed his advice, his guidance. She rolled the still-warm metal travel mug between her palms as she searched for the words. 
“I... I really don't know what I should be doing with my life. All these little projects get started, and then... they just seem to peeter off into nothing. I feel like I start so many things and just can't seem to finish them. What is it that I should do?” 
He draped his arm lovingly across her shoulders and smiled gently. “Plant the seeds.” 
“And then?” 
“Nurture them a little until they sprout.” 
Her hands paused as she glanced quizzically at him. “And then?” 
“Nothing.” 
“Nothing?” 
He grinned, seeing she wasn't getting it, but - with infinite patience - gave her the time to think. “Nothing.” 
She knew that look on his face, she'd seen it before. 
She walked wordlessly at his side for a spell, fingers wrapped around the warmth of the mug and her shoulders snug in his embrace. “But if I do nothing, what will happen to all I started? It would just unravel, wouldn't it?” 
“Not necessarily.” 
Again she shot him an inquiring look, raising one eyebrow in his direction. 
He laughed at her expression, but didn't say a word. 
“Well?” 
He paused and turned to face her, with a mischievous smile of his own. 
She stopped and faced him with a look that clearly read, “Tell me or stop teasing me.” 
He playfully poked the bridge of her nose and quietly replied, “That's my job.” 
The challenge in her eyes faded as comprehension dawned in her mind. 
Smiling, they resumed their walk. 
She nodded and tossed back the last of the coffee. “You're right. I really should trust you more often.” 
Companionably the two continued their stroll down a New England Main Street. Two pairs of sandals tapped quietly along the sidewalk: one pair worn below jeans and a T-shirt, and the other beneath a desert robe from a bygone age.

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Feeding Seagulls

I heard this story on the radio and want to share it.
On vacation, this person fed crackers to the seagulls. While doing so he was able to identify three different types of bird personalities.

First, there were those that would hover and watch but never got too near to get any of the food that was being offered.
Second, there were those that got just close enough to catch a few crumbs, but not close enough to obtain the full amount.
Then there was the bold and brave ones. These would come right up and take the cracker directly from his hand.
He tried to coax the others to do the same, for he meant them no harm.
In this moment he had a revelation: how like these seagulls humanity can be when we approach God.
God is there with many Blessings, much like the man holding out the crackers for the gulls. He doesn't want to hurt us, but to share Blessings with us.
Some will watch but never reach out to receive these Blessings, afraid to even draw near to God.
Some are like the skittish gulls, coming only just close enough to receive a few crumbs when God has so much more to offer.
And some are like the brave gulls, with complete trust and confidence that God does not intend harm. They are the ones that receive all that God wants to give - right from His hand.
I strive to be more like the brave gulls. From this point forward, I intend to do so.
What type of seagull are you?
~ESA

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Planting the Seed (Story)

Written four years ago, it's time to re-post this. Enjoy! ~ ESA
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The early morning sun rose gloriously as two walkers strolled down a quiet New England Main Street. As they passed a new eatery, the woman grinned mischievously when she read the name: Mustard Seed Cafe.

She sipped her coffee and commented, "That sign reminds me of something. Maybe something you said once, about a seed...."

The man laughed, white teeth showing through his beard. "And what did you take away from that one?"


She glanced about, looking for something to inspire a witty reply. "Wasn't there a parable involved...?"

A little bird dove to the sidewalk before them, picked at the concrete block a moment, then fluttered away.

"No," she admitted with a wry grin, "The parable in mind involved seed being tossed in different places, each failing save the seed that hit fertile grown and produced hundredfold or something like that."

He chuckled nodding, "...something like that. So what about the mustard seed?"

She grinned as she took another sip. "Little seed becomes big plant. Right?"

His deep brown eyes took on a blend of challenge and mischief, "Maybe you can write a story about it?"

She smirked, "Yeah, right."

He gestured expansively with his arm, "You are a writer; you were given that gift. Write a story about it. Maybe then you'd understand it better."

She took a good swallow of her coffee, while she wrapped her mind around the challenge, knowing there was something there that maybe DID make a good story. As the story shifted to her mental back burner, the conversation changed, covering a broad range of topics.

Before she knew it, they arrived at the topic she needed to broach. Part of her shyly wanted to hold back and digress, but another part knew this is why she asked her companion to walk with her this morning. She really needed his advice, his guidance. She rolled the still-warm metal travel mug between her palms as she searched for the words.

"I... I really don't know what I should be doing with my life. All these little projects get started, and then... they just seem to peeter off into nothing. I feel like I start so many things and just can't seem to finish them. What is it that I should do?"

He draped his arm lovingly across her shoulders and smiled gently. "Plant the seeds."

"And then?"

"Nurture them a little until they sprout."

Her hands paused as she glanced quizzically at him. "And then?"

"Nothing."

"Nothing?"

He grinned, seeing she wasn't getting it, but - with infinite patience - gave her the time to think. "Nothing."

She knew that look on his face, she'd seen it before. She walked wordlessly at his side for a spell, fingers wrapped around the warmth of the mug and her shoulders snug in his embrace.

"But if I do nothing, what will happen to all I started? It would just unravel, wouldn't it?"

"Not necessarily."

Again she shot him an inquiring look, raising one eyebrow in his direction.

He laughed at her expression, but didn't say a word.

"Well?"

He paused and turned to face her, with a mischievous smile of his own.

She stopped and faced him with a look that clearly read, "Tell me or stop teasing me."

He playfully poked the bridge of her nose and quietly replied, "That's my job."

The challenge in her eyes faded as comprehension dawned in her mind.

Smiling, they resumed their walk.

She nodded and tossed back the last of the coffee. "You're right. I really should trust you more often."

Companionably the two continued their stroll down a New England Main Street. Two pairs of sandals tapped quietly along the sidewalk: one pair worn below jeans and a T-shirt, and the other beneath a desert robe from a bygone age.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Planting the Seed (Story)

Written about three years ago, it's time to re-post this. Enjoy! ~ ESA
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The early morning sun rose gloriously as two walkers strolled down a quiet New England Main Street.
As they passed a new eatery, the woman grinned mischievously when she read the name: Mustard Seed Cafe. She sipped her coffee and commented, "That sign reminds me of something. Maybe something you said once, about a seed...."

The man laughed, white teeth showing through his beard. "And what did you take away from that one?"


She glanced about, looking for something to inspire a witty reply. "Wasn't there a parable involved...?"

A little wren dove to the sidewalk before them, picked at the concrete block a moment, then fluttered away. "No," she admitted with a wry grin, "The parable in mind involved seed being tossed in different places, each failing save the seed that hit fertile grown and produced hundredfold or something like that."

He chuckled nodding, "...something like that. So what about the mustard seed?"

She grinned as she took another sip from the travel mug. "Little seed becomes big plant. Right?"

His deep brown eyes took on a blend of challenge and mischief, "Maybe you can write a story about it?"

She smirked, "Yeah, right."

He gestured expansively with his arm, "You are a writer; you were given that gift. Write a story about it. Maybe then you'd understand it better."

She took a good swallow of her coffee, while she wrapped her mind around the challenge, knowing there was something there that maybe DID make a good story. As the story shifted to her mental back burner, the conversation changed, covering a broad range of topics.

Before she knew it, they arrived at the topic she needed to broach. Part of her shyly wanted to hold back and digress, but another part knew this is why she asked her companion to walk with her this morning. She really needed his advice, his guidance. She rolled the still-warm metal travel mug between her palms as she searched for the words.

"I... I really don't know what I should be doing with my life. All these little projects get started, and then... they just seem to peeter off into nothing. I feel like I start so many things and just can't seem to finish them. What is it that I should do?"

He draped his arm lovingly across her shoulders and smiled gently. "Plant the seeds."

"And then?"

"Nurture them a little until they sprout."

Her hands paused as she glanced quizzically at him. "And then?"

"Nothing."

"Nothing?" 

He grinned, seeing she wasn't getting it, but - with infinite patience - gave her the time to think. "Nothing."

She knew that look on his face, she'd seen it before. She walked wordlessly at his side for a spell, fingers wrapped around the warmth of the mug and her shoulders snug in his embrace.

"But if I do nothing, what will happen to all I started? It would just unravel, wouldn't it?"

"Not necessarily." 

Again she shot him an inquiring look, raising one eyebrow in his direction. 

He laughed at her expression, but didn't say a word. 

"Well?" 

He paused and turned to face her, with a mischievous smile of his own.

She stopped and faced him with a look that clearly read, "Tell me or stop teasing me." 

He playfully poked the bridge of her nose and quietly replied, "That's my job."  

The challenge in her eyes faded as comprehension dawned in her mind. Smiling, they resumed their walk. She nodded and tossed back the last of the coffee. "You're right. I really should trust you more often." 

Companionably the two continued their stroll down Main Street. Two pairs of sandals tapped quietly along the sidewalk: one pair worn below jeans and a T-shirt, and the other beneath a desert robe from a bygone age.

Pushing the Rock (Story)

This is a story I've heard in passing from time-to-time. I'd like to share it today with you. 
~ ESA
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A man was sleeping at night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light and Jesus appeared before him. 
Christ told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin.
The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock every day with all his might.
This the man did, day after day.
For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing it with all his might.
Each night the man returned to his cabin sore, and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.
Noticing that the man was showing signs of discouragement, the adversary decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the man’s mind. “You have been pushing against this rock for a long time, and it hasn’t budged. Why kill yourself over this? You are never going to move it.”
Thus the adversary gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These troubling thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man. “Why kill myself over this?" he said to himself. "I’ll just put in my time, giving just the minimum effort and that will be good enough."
And that is what he planned the very next day day.
That night, Jesus visited the man again, and the man decided to the matter before Him. “Lord” he said, “I have labored long and hard in your service, putting all my strength pushing against that rock. See my hands? See how my muscles are so tired, and my back aches at the end of each day. Yet, after all this time, I have not even been able to budge that rock. Not even an inch! What is wrong? Why am I failing?”
Jesus responded compassionately, “My friend, When I asked you to serve me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to me with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so?”
 
“Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown, your hands are callused from constant pressure, and your legs have become massive and hard.

"Through opposition you have grown much and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. Yes, you haven’t moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in my wisdom. This you have done.
"I, my friend, will now move the rock.”

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Holiday Brake

Yes, I mean "brake" and not "break." Last night, I lost the brakes on my old Jeep. Some may curse and gripe that life threw them yet another (and possibly expensive!) problem to take care of -- during the holidays when they were away from home. Last night, I got down on my knees and thanked God and any of His workers that helped me yesterday.
My husband and I were picking up a friend of ours who was home-bound and driving to an inexpensive restaurant to meet a group of other friends we haven't seen in a year or more. On the way, I noticed my breaks suddenly went VERY soft, where I needed to press the pedal deeper each time I "tapped" the brakes in the traffic flow.
I didn't know if we were going to make it to the restaurant. Our friend, an elderly woman, was seated in the passenger side beside me. An accident, even a slight one where the airbag would go off in her face, would likely be lethal to her. We were driving after dark on Long Island; New York drivers - including myself - are atrocious as they cut you off suddenly, weave in and out of traffic and travel at LEAST 20 MPH above the speed limit - including local roads.
We decided to avoid the highway and I cruised -- what felt like a "crawl" -- along a main thoroughfare. I left a LOT of space before me, which only encouraged the other drivers to cut in front of me often. I coasted to a slow stop at each traffic light, annoying the drivers behind me.
I had my hand on the emergency brake the whole time. I apparently drive single-handedly quite well.
It didn't occur to me until just now, while I wrote that last sentence, how often I do that with my relationship with God. There are times when I fly by life, ignoring the limits even - or at least going "a little" beyond them. Yet, when something happens that I realize there IS real danger out there - I hold on God's Hand as tightly as I held on to that emergency brake. God is there, then and when I cruise with no concerns, just as much as the emergency brake that's been in the Jeep all along.
Needless to say, not only did we make it safely to the restaurant, we also had added blessings. A friend that takes public transit was able to find another ride home, as we could not take her as planned. Because others showed up at the restaurant, unplanned, they were able to take our passenger back to her place too. Plus a friend was able to help us get a tow back to my mother's house, much further than our AAA membership would have gotten us. We were grateful for these as well.
There are many blessings in life, sometimes we become too blind in our gripes of what went wrong to see them. Sometimes we also blind ourselves to God's Hand right there beside us in easy reach.
Yet, it is always there.
- ESA 

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Chrokee Rite of Passage (Story)

Passed to me recently, but one I've heard and read before.

Do you know the legend of the Cherokee Indian youth's rite of Passage?

His father takes him into the forest, blindfolds him an leaves him alone. He is required to sit on a stump the whole night and not remove the blindfold until the rays of the morning sun shine through it. He cannot cry out for help to anyone.

Once he survives the night, he is a MAN.

He cannot tell the other boys of this experience, because each lad must come into manhood on his own.

The boy is naturally terrified. He can hear all kinds of noises. Wild beasts must surely be all around him. Maybe even some human might do him harm. The wind blew the grass and earth, and shook his stump, but he sat stoically, never removing the blindfold. It would be the only way he could become a man!

Finally, after a horrific night the sun appeared and he removed his blindfold.

It was then that he discovered his father sitting on the stump next to him. He had been at watch the entire night, protecting his son from harm.

We, too, are never alone. Even when we don't know it, like that father, God is with us too.

Please share and pass it on.

- ESA

Friday, April 30, 2010

Blind Trust

This was shared with me after I posted yesterday's piece:

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A man and Jesus were on a journey. When they came to a new path, the man could not see what lay beyond their toes and he turned to Jesus and asked, "Lord, light the way before me so I know where to go."

To which Jesus replied, "It is better that you should take my hand and trust me to guide you."

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- ESA

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

The Shell (Poem)

I wrote this poem about two years ago, after I tried to describe to someone what it was like being an outcast while I was growing up, and how it affects your ability to trust another. Something I read on another's blog brought this to mind and I wanted to share it with my readers.

Perhaps this may also help some understand why people that are hurting WILL hurt others...

The Shell

When the waters grow deeper

The world darkens before your eye
You reach and you search
Find nothing no matter how you try
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God's Light diminishes
As you hide behind that wall
Protect yourself from the darkness
With a wall strong and tall
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A knock at the door
A lance of pain sears
You lash out at the invader
As you fight off your tears
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The blow you make hits
But no matter how you try
The invader persists
Trying to make you cry
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A crack at the wall
Light floods inside
Fearing the unknown
Into the shadows you hide
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A hand reaches in
You lash out again
The hand is still there
Bloody and grim
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A gentle voice coaxes
Get out of that shell
Place your trust in Me
I will make you well
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Bewildered and frightened
You shrink back some more
Afraid heart and soul
Of the voice at the door
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The hand is still there
No harsh words are said
No scolding, no reprimand
No curse from the dead
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You place your hand
In the hand of the other
As you leave that shell
You may find a Brother

-ESA

Monday, April 5, 2010

Crying Wolf

Yesterday, I celebrated Easter with my family. While I was gathered with some on the east-coast (US) just north of New York City, another part had gathered on the west-coast in San Diego. Through Skype, we had a nice, long face-to-face, coast-to-coast chat individually and in groups.

Then it happened.

The 7.2 quake hit Baja California and rolled their section of San Diego while we watched.

It was a silent rolling, unlike the rumble-and-shake we east-coast folk see in the movies. Those on the west-coast struggled to convince us that there really WAS an earthquake going on.

Why?

My younger brother is a practical joker, and he's mastered how to do it with such a straight face he has pulled the wool over our eyes many times. When he reported, "We're having a quake right NOW!" none on the east-coast believed him.

All through the long interval where the earthquake continued to roll and sway their home, we kept arguing from the safe distance that he was "just trying to trick us again.

For those that do not know it, there is a story where a bored boy shepherd keeps running to the local town and cries out there is a wolf attacking the sheep. After one too many times of falling for his pranks, the town's folk no longer believe the lad. Then the wolf does come; he makes off with the sheep because the town's folk were convinced the true warning was another trick.

The very same thing happened to my brother yesterday.

It's not just a folk's tale.
There is a lesson there.
Never cry wolf!

- ESA

Friday, March 19, 2010

Fear the Lord?

Someone just sent me a Twitter DM that read, "I love people that fear the Lord!!! They're cool people!" For some reason I replied, "I Love, honor and respect God. A person doesn't approach the One (s)he fears. What I "fear" is disappointing Him."

We traded a few more DM's after that, but I believe my feelings were best summed up in this: "I know many Christians use the phrase, and that God does have a temper! For some reason, though, it seems odd to fear One I Love so much...."

In that nutshell I realized that, over the years, I've opened my heart to Love to the point where there is no more room left for fear. Instead, I have found unquestioning Trust in God.

I certainly know God has a temper! I know what God's Wrath can do....

But the Love inside helps me get past the trepidation caused by this knowledge and I'm able to open my heart wide to both God and others without fear. Even when I know I'll find heartache sometimes. I Love God so much that I cannot hold back and cower in fear; I just want to run to Him, do what I can to please Him and serve Him in whatever ways I am called to do!

What I now fear isn't God - but disappointing Him. Like a toddler who always tries to please a parent, sometimes I succeed, and I know sometimes I fail.... :*(

Looking back at these words, I also wonder how many people stake a claim in their faith ONLY because they FEAR the outcome of NOT doing so..... instead of opening their hearts to Love.

Seek the Love
To get past Fear
And find the Love so very dear!

-ESA

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Obstacles and Tools

As one strives to grow spiritually, one recognizes and overcomes obstacles that impede growth. Often, these can be summed up in two words: Fear and Self-Pride.

Fear hinders our efforts to open our hearts and reach out to others. It prevents us from leaving comfortable situations for something new and unknown. Fear of failure stills hands and tongues more often than any criticism, reprimand or outside threat.

Self-Pride - feeling that I am greater or stand taller than others in someone's eyes (including God's) - leads to prejudice, ostentation, greed, jealousy, bitterness, lies, and corruption of the soul. With it, one's eyes remain on oneself and not where they should be.

Then there's the combination of the two: when one allows fear of what others think of them to alter what one is inspired to do. That defeats the purpose, for in changing it one weakens or kills it. Or worse, changes it's message or intent.

Within our possession we have tools to counter this.

Faith and Trust work together to form the Courage that sees us through the Fear. Faith and Trust in God opens us to Guidance and Understanding of things that were beyond us, helping us break the illusion fear often holds before our eyes.

We also bring out the best in others by believing in them and trusting them to do the right thing. Yes, we will get hurt, for the world is not perfect. But it's good-faith efforts that allows humanity to collaborate. And when we work together, something amazing happens: We accomplish far more than the sum of our individual efforts!

Humility is hard to maintain, but it keeps the ego down to a manageable size. It helps one to see the the false glitter of lies and LAUGH in it's face! It will not be in standing before people but in serving people that things progress. For in working for and with one another, we grow. Those that stand proudly in front oft are the ones blocking the progress.

Keeping our eyes off ourselves is one of the hardest things. Each year we celebrate our own birth. Attention is given to individual grades in school; personal accomplishments are recognized. To get a job, we must tell people what we do and how well we do it. It's become our way of life.

We need to avert our eyes from a public, self-centered perspective to see what is outside of ourselves (others and their needs) and within ourselves (God's Love, Guidance and Wisdom).

Further, this leads to another tool: Prayer. When we know we are not alone, and when we realize we need help, we pray. Sometimes we bemoan our circumstances and ask for help. But when take our eyes off ourselves completely, praying for others and opening ourselves to His Guidance, we let His Love combine with our love.

And in serving humbly, we allow that Love to flow through our thoughts, works and words. When we focus on self, this is choked off. When we focus how WE are helping others, it is crippled. But when we move our focus off ourselves entirely, it flows sweetly.

When we get past the Fear and Self-Pride,
So many wondrous things happen.

-ESA

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Blind Goals

"Thy Will Be Done"

~ Words spoken in the Our Father / Lord's Prayer
~ Words felt keenly by Christ in the garden of Gethsemane
~ Words that are very difficult to live by, especially when I am blind to what God's Will is in my life


It is one thing to know a goal - whether or not I agree with it, find it difficult or even impossible - and work my way through whatever obstacles and challenges to reach that goal. It is another thing entirely to not know that goal... but still work my way blindly forward to achieve it.

Why would I work toward a goal I do not see or understand? Why would God place such a goal in my hands and expect me to reach it?

Two reasons:

First, I am not God. I am not all-seeing, all-knowing; there is a much greater knowledge and understanding of what is going on in everything from my small, personal life to the vast reaches of all Creation.

So if I try to reach a goal - I'll be doing it MY way. Many times the ends does not justify the means. Many times what I will do to reach a goal will actually hinder my efforts - or worse - harm another or their efforts in obtaining their goals. There is often a better way of reaching the goal, even when I'm not aware of it.

That leads to the second reason: TRUST.

If I don't know where I'm going or - more precisely - what I need to do in this world, I need to learn to put more trust in God that I will be guided.

It is hard. I get in my own way time after time. Often I see a glimmer of what I think is the goal and I take reins back and say, "Thanks, I'll take it from here" and wind up misdirected.

But whenever I run into a dead-end, God is there - sometimes laughing at me; sometimes laughing with me - ready to take my outstretched hand and guide me again to His Will in my life.

Yes, there is also the risk of being misguided by others. That is where prayer helps - an open two-way communication - AND walking with my eyes open even though I don't see the distant goal ahead.

Just because I am blind to my life's goals doesn't mean I am blind about my own actions and what is happening around me. I still am responsible for my own actions, the words I speak / write, the works of my own hands, and the times I've stood aside and did nothing.

In addition to the two aforementioned reasons, I've just thought of another.... How many times have I worried, thought about, planned, dreamed and imagined what the future will be like - anything from what will happen in the far distant future to what will I have for lunch today? Too often.

In my mind I often live in the past or the future and fail to live in the NOW. To simply "BE" in my life. But that is where my life really should be lived; the rest is just in my head. The present is where the biggest impact is made in life - mine and how I impact the lives of others.

So I should learn from the past
Let God take care of the future
And put my Trust in His guidance

- ESA

Monday, November 9, 2009

Relearning Trust

I wanted to share something I found quite remarkable.

This morning, I spoke with the manager of a local bagel shop asking if they could be a clothing donation drop-off point for the local homeless. She refused with the same excuse I've heard last year from the prior manager. I paused to take a sip of coffee and work on how I would word the argument. But in that pause, the woman continued to speak.

So instead of interrupting, I listened.

As the woman spoke, she actually talked herself into agreeing with the idea. She pointed out how convenient it would be, as people stop off at her bagel shop on their way to work. She indicated how often she had driven around for months with potential donations in her car, with no time in her busy day to drop it off at a place outside of her routine. And more.

I didn't need to say a word; Another was talking.

Last week, I heard someone comment that we need to place more trust in God. Sadly I will admit, it's very hard to put my complete trust in God that He will help. I know it intellectually, believe it in my heart. But when it comes into putting that into practice...

... I falter often.

And then I'm given a little reminder, like this morning. Seeing this helps me in a way beyond what I can put in words.

I am small in a Creation far greater than what my mind can understand. I need to learn to be like a child and reach out my hand in complete trust, letting God guide me and help me get things done.

Each day of my life.

- ESA

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Bright Lights

Between the news the media covers and how bad news seems to travel further and faster than good news, it is difficult to see the good in our fellow human beings. Instead we look upon each other with fear and suspicion.

Recently, a friend had some people reach out to him and his wife in their need. I admit that my first and primary response was that fear when I heard they not only had his phone number but also his address, saying they will bring over some goods. I warned my friend to be very careful as these people could rob them or worse...

His response snapped me into a better perspective. He told me flatly, there was nothing in his home worth stealing. He was not going to let the fear that we have of strangers stop him from opening the door to those who really do intend to help.

He judged correctly, those people brought smiles, food and things he and his wife could use, a very rare thing in his life and a blessing he received with a gratitude and joy that touched my heart.

Someone really cared for their fellow human beings.
Someone fought that fear and opened their door.
Together that moment has something to teach us all.

We should be alert and open the ways for any of our fellow human beings who truly wish to help others. And while we should maintain vigilance against those who deceive, manipulate and abuse the ways we open, we should never use it as an excuse or reason to let our fears lock us away from each other.

We all share this world. True, there is darkness and evil here. But there are many bright points of Light and Love here too. If we open our eyes to see the difference, we will see not only the bright points, but the ways they illuminate where we can help one another.

We also shouldn't propagate the bad news; just alert others of precautions to take. Instead, we should spread good news, and fight against the fear that has made us mistrustful of one another.

Hand-in-Hand can humanity stand
Against the fear
Trust in Love

- ESA

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Trust of a Child

I spent the night at my sister's place visiting, but I woke up exceptionally early (before 4:30 AM) and logged online to find something to occupy my time.

I went to IM chat box first, but the only two friends "online" I knew were likely asleep, so I refrained from sending a post that may wake them, leaving them to dream in what Peace they may find.

I then wandered my way back to Twitter and skimmed through the tweets. My drive to go to Twitter every day had suddenly fallen off last weekend.

For the past week it felt as though I was tossed unanchored from wave to wave seeking more secure footing. I still had my guiding star in sight, but without secure footing, sometimes one gets a few mouthfuls of water to spit out before toes can dig into the sand and find the rock ledge beneath.

What my wandering heart and mind sought this early hour was not there. So I continued...

Instead of a gaming website (which I tended to visit when I could not find anyone I wanted to converse with online), I went to my blog and skimmed through the sites I follow.

There I found a few allegedly inspirational posts, but they seemed to fall dead at my feet this morning as I sat in the silent darkness before the first birdsong hearing only the rain pitter-patter on the walkway outside.

I also read a few humorous blogs; some made me smile, but not had me laugh nor lifted the darkness that seemed to grow more oppresive with each passing minute.

Then I came across my young niece's blog. She wrote of her 14-year-young problems with her mom, step-dad, friends and boyfriend. But she also wrote a lot about God and Jesus. Even when she did not name them, her faith shone through her words - clearly stating that no matter what she faced, God was there. She just had to put her trust in Him to see her through whatever life placed in her path.

I believe that was what my heart sought. So many times, I get so wrapped up focusing on stuff in my head, with work, with family, with discussions of what things written long ago may mean, I forget to take a still moment -- even one in the middle of the night -- and just listen to God's song in my heart, trusting Him and letting Him guide me where I need to be and with what I'm called to do. I know He is reaching out to me and to each and every one of us...

When that finally dawned on me, the first birdsong rang clear and true outside the window where I still sit. I clicked on the [New Post] button and decided to share this moment with you. It's very early morning; the sun barely kissed the sky with light and a lone bird greets the still morning outside. The song in my heart joins in it's song lifted to God.

Relive the faith of a child.
Believe He's reaching.
Trust in Him

- ESA

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The Shell (Poem)

This is a poem written a year ago after I tried to describe to someone what it was like being an outcast while I was growing up, and how it affects your ability to trust another. I rediscovered it this morning thumbing through my journal. I have a friend now going through something similar....

When the waters grow deeper
The world darkens before your eye
You reach and you search
Find nothing no matter how you try
+++
God's Light diminishes
As you hide behind that wall
Protect yourself from the darkness
With a wall strong and tall
+++
A knock at the door
A lance of pain sears
You lash out at the invader
As you fight off your tears
+++
The blow you make hits
But no matter how you try
The invader persists
Trying to make you cry
+++
A crack at the wall
Light floods inside
Fearing the unknown
Into the shadows you hide
+++
A hand reaches in
You lash out again
The hand is still there
Bloody and grim
+++
A gentle voice coaxes
Get out of that shell
Place your trust in Me
I will make you well
+++
Bewildered and frightened
You shrink back some more
Afraid heart and soul
Of the voice at the door
+++
The hand is still there
No harsh words are said
No scolding, no reprimand
No curse from the dead
+++
You place your hand
In the hand of the other
As you leave that shell
You may find a Brother

-ESA

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Mighter Than the Sword (Story)

(c) 1999

The aged dragon, Glaston, slowly approached the counter in a tavern. The toad behind the counter looked up and let his face split into a broad grin. Then he glanced to the table where Glaston’s companion waited, and the smile fell from his face.

Glaston chuckled and leaned across the counter, speaking low. “Don’t fret, Patrick, we’re not here to hassle you about last night. But we do have a preposition. Bring over three lunches and join us.”

Patrick hopped into the kitchen and was soon seated at the dimly lit corner table with Glaston and Hereclitus, the heir to the Principality. Patrick wisely remained silent until he was requested to speak.

Glaston leaned forward and said quietly, “We heard about what happened to your storyteller last night.”

Patrick’s large eyes flickered to Hereclitus.

The heir sat back calmly. “I don’t agree with my father’s actions – especially of late.”

Glaston continued, “What do you know about this, Patrick?”

Patrick drew a deep breath. “I know that Connor is always one to tell things like they are. Lately, he’s told stories about Prince Hendrick’s … ah…”

Hereclitus raised a brow and suggested, “Cruelties?”

“Yes,” he croaked, “Cruelties is a good word. Anyway, late last night after closing, members of the royal brigade stormed in here and hauled Connor away. None of us dared to follow, but his wife has been worried sick since then.”

Hereclitus’ eyes turned sad, “You may tell his widow that Connor’s … remains … are two miles from this village in the woods.”

Horror turned Patrick’s pallor a shade grayer.

Glaston cleared his throat. “As to this situation, you and Connor’s widow are the only two witnesses left alive. I prefer that the two of you tell folks that Connor just left the Principality and keep it at that.”

“But-”

“For the sake of peace. Do you realize what Prince Hendrick would do to this tavern – to this village – if he knew the truth was known?”

Patrick turned white and quickly drained his goblet.

Glaston continued, “You will, of course, need a new storyteller.”

Patrick eyed him silently.

“I propose you hold a storytelling competition. But I also ask that you open the contest to peasants.”

“Peasants? I have nothing against them, but others –”

“Please see that they are invited. Merewin and Mallory will help you. Oh, and I need Leoni as one of the judges.”

The toad was dumbfounded. “But, Lord Glaston, she hates peasants almost as much as –” he cut off abruptly, glancing to the heir.

“As much as my father,” finished Hereclitus. “Fortunately, my view is not clouded by such prejudice. Please do invite the peasants; I would like to see all the classes living in peace together.”

“Y-yes, My Lord Hereclitus,” Patrick croaked. He rose, bowed and quickly excused himself, taking his plate with him.

Hereclitus sighed as he picked up a utensil and turned to Glaston. “I just wish Mother would let me confront him,” he said contemptuously. “Then all this insanity would end. I’ve tried to stop this many times, but Mother intervenes. I love her too much to hurt her.”

“Perhaps she believes that you are too young to assume the coronet.”

“Am I, Glaston? You’ve been my tutor from the cradle.”

Glaston studied him with wise eyes. “Perhaps you are ready. Perhaps you are not.”

Hereclitus sighed again. “Why all the riddles and games, Glaston?”

Glaston smiled. “That’s part of the world you come from. You need to learn to play the game as well as lead the people.”

*************************************

The cat stepped out of her home in the poorer section of the village and witnessed soap bubbles drifting across her small backyard. She glanced over the short picket fence and spied her neighbors, Rose and Moustrie, doing their laundry.

With a friendly smile, she called, “Fine morning for laundry,” as she carried her pots down the back steps. “Did you hear about the storytelling contest?”

“We heard last night,” Rose replied. “I’m trying to convince our local celebrity here to enter it.”

“Commoners don’t really want peasants around,” Moustrie replied with a frustrated swish of her tail.

“I don’t see why you won’t at least try,” Rose bleated.

The gray-furred mouse flicked her ears back at the reprimand as she scrubbed at a stubborn stain. “A formal contest is different than just telling stories at Riverside Tavern,” she informed the ewe. “Besides,” she quipped and held up the skirt she was washing, “my reception locally isn’t all that good.”

Rose raised a brow at the mouse. “We’re wasting time doing this now,” she chided as she wrung out a blouse and hung it on the frayed wash line. “And, you won’t be serving tables while you’re telling the story today.”

Moustrie’s large ears sagged. “I just wish people would give me more credit as a storyteller,” she muttered as she rinsed and wrung out her skirt. “If I win the contest…”

“You’re just a dreamer,” mewed the cat as she set down her pots. She licked her paw and pressed a few graying strands of sweat soaked fur away from her green eyes. “They’ll never let a peasant win one of their contests.” With a dismissive swish of her tail, she rolled up her sleeves and started to scrub the baked-on grime from the well-used tin pots.

Rose’s brows came down and she purposely put her back to the feline. “If you don’t take this chance, Moustrie, you’ll be telling tales of woe for the rest of your life. This is a chance many of us would give our tail for!” She glanced up at the summer sun, “Tails! If we’re going to make it, we’ve got to leave now.”

Moustrie frowned. “But this outfit’s all wet; I need a better dress for the contest.”

“No time,” Rose said as she pulled Moustrie through the dark, narrow alley between the buildings. “Besides,” she called over her shoulder, “you might talk yourself out of it again.” Together, the two hurried up the bustling street toward the better part of the village.

*********************

The upscale tavern, High Spirits, was clearly twice the size of Riverside Tavern. A bright coat of colored paint rather than simple whitewash covered the building, while a wooden sign with the carved images of a goblet and plate swung from a metal rod above the door. The pair paused in the deep shadow of the portico in front of an elaborately carved front door. Moustrie’s tail twitched as she poked her nose and whiskers around the slightly open door. “Look, Rose, the windows are colored glass and the walls – even the floor – are waxed beautifully!”

“And I’ll bet a pound of my winter wool that the food we smell is ten times better than what we serve too.”

The fur on the back of their necks rose as a low growl reached their ears. A burly black bear swung the door wide and emerged from the tavern. With a yelp, the pair leapt back as Brutis placed himself squarely in the doorway. “Can’t you read?” he snarled, pointing to the sign nailed beside the doorpost: NO UNESCORTED PEASANTS.

Moustrie shook her head, tucking her long tail down the back of her skirt. “No sir, we’re not schooled in letters.”

“Well, it says that –”

“Hold a moment, Brutis.” A well-groomed fox in good silks stepped out from behind the bear and squinted into the bright daylight. “Perhaps they’re here for the storytelling competition.”

Moustrie and Rose both nodded enthusiastically.

“Ah! Good, then we have at least two peasant storytellers.”

“Uh… no milord,” corrected Rose sheepishly, ducking behind her friend. “I’m just here for Moustrie.”

Disinterested, Brutis shrugged his broad shoulders and lumbered back inside.

A vixen’s head appeared over the fox’s shoulder, just before the door shut behind them. “Who are they, dear? What’s the fuss?”

The fox stepped aside and turned to his wife. “My dear, this is Moustrie and…”

“Rose,” the mouse supplied for her friend.

“…Rose. Moustrie will be joining our storytelling competition.” Then he faced the pair. “I’d like to present to you the Fair Lady Merewin, my beautiful wife and a member of the court of their Royal Highnesses, Prince Hendrick and Princess Galatea.”

The pair stepped back, eyes wide in awe. Then they quickly curtsied deeply, dropping their eyes.

Merewin stepped gracefully past him into the light. Rich folds of cloth enfolded her shapely figure, while finely cut jewels sparkled in the sun. “You girls don’t have to be that formal; we’re not in court here.” Then she frowned at her husband, “You’ll also have to pardon Lord Mallory, his title goes right to his – Tails and Whiskers! Is that the best garb you have?”

Moustrie’s ears drooped and she looked at the vixen sorrowfully. “I was doing my laundry, My Lady, and there was no time to change clothes.”

Mallory nodded. “That would explain the water stains. You can tell your story last; that will give you time to sun yourself in the garden out back.”

Merewin agreed, “You don’t want your appearance to distract from the story.” She gestured for Moustrie to follow and was about to open the door when Glaston stepped out from the portico’s shadows.

“Allow me, My Lady Merewin.” With as little difficulty as a younger dragon, Glaston swung the thick, heavy oak door wide.

“Ah! Glaston, I didn’t see you standing out here. Did you meet Moustrie and Rose?”

Glaston nodded eloquently. “Glad to make your acquaintances.”

The vixen then introduced him to pair, “Glaston is the Royal Heir’s tutor.” Gracefully stepping into the tavern, Merewin gestured for Moustrie to follow her through the crowded common-room to the back door.

Half-blinded, Rose paused just inside the doorway, letting her eyes adjust.

Glaston placed a clawed hand lightly on her shoulder and asked, “Have you eaten?”

Rose jumped at the unexpected familiarity and meekly bleated, “No, My Lord, not since breaking fast this morning.”

“There are complimentary meals with the contest.”

“Complimentary?” Rose asked, stumbling over the unfamiliar word.

“A free meal, then. The tavern-keeper adds it to Lord Mallory’s tab.”

“For everyone?”

“No, the meals are for the storytellers,” he explained in a deep, persuasive baritone, “but I’m sure Moustrie wouldn’t mind sharing a large meal with you.”

“No, she wouldn’t,” Rose agreed quietly, unnerved by the noble’s attention.

“You need not fear me, Rose. I mean you no harm. I, too, am here for moral support.” He gestured to the young, richly dressed griffin at the front table. “Hereclitus is on the panel of judges for this competition.”

“The Heir is here!” she bleated and clapped a hand over her mouth, eyes very wide and fearful.

“Be at peace, Rose. Hereclitus is not his father’s son.”

The sheep studied Hereclitus for a long moment and then studied Glaston as closely as one of her station dared. “If I may be so bold…”

“…to ask a question of me?”

Rose nodded nervously.

“Go ahead.”

“Why…” She swallowed and looked around quickly. “Why are the nobles interested in a commoner’s contest?” she bleated out quickly.

Glaston raised a brow at the question.

Just as quickly, she apologized, “Forgive me, My Lord, my curiosity gets the better of me at times.”

Glaston studied Rose a moment, looking deep into her brown eyes. “No need to forgive when no offence was received. And curiosity is a great path to learning.” He paused, noting her deepening embarrassment. “You and your friend must be hungry.” He gestured for Rose to lead the way to the counter where the tavern-keeper stood. “Tell me, how well do you know Moustrie’s family?”

Rose shrugged, lulled into a strange calmness, and started to weave her way across the room. “She hasn’t much family left in this village. Moustrie and her sister both work at Riverside Tavern with me. Her brothers left to find work elsewhere, and both of her parents are gone now.”

As they reached the counter, the bovine tavern-keeper eyed Rose suspiciously. She ducked her head meekly and said, “I was told there was food for the storytellers.”

The ox was about to send her away until he spied Glaston just behind her. With a scowl, he bellowed the order into the kitchen and added another mark in the book.

As they waited, Glaston quietly asked, “Her parents are gone? Do you mean they left the village too?”

Rose shook her head as she reached for the goblet of wine that the ox had just set down. “Oh no, My Lord, they died … seasons ago.”

“A shame. How did they die? Was it an accident? An illness, perhaps?”

Rose shook her head. “Just old age.”

“Old age?” Glaston’s voice betrayed his surprise. He turned his head away, muttering, “Have so many years passed?” Then he shook his head and faced the counter. The ox was about to set down the plate – piled high with sliced meat, fresh baked bread and steaming vegetables – when Glaston smoothly reached forward and took it. “Thank you, Tavernkeep.”

Upon seeing the generous portions Rose was slack-jawed, but her shoulders and tail sagged when Glaston didn’t pass her the plate. She remained silent, but looked at his with pleading eyes.

The elderly dragon smiled, “If you have no objectives, I’d like to help carry the food out to your friend in the garden.”

“You … help me? But I’m a peasant!”

Glaston chuckled lightly. “That shouldn’t matter.” He turned and indicated that she should lead the way outside.

Rose was momentarily blinded when she stepped from the tavern into the bright sunlight. Moustrie waved to her excitedly. “Over here, Rose. Oh! Hello, My Lord.”

Glaston handed the plate to Moustrie. “I must return to my companion now. I’ll see you inside.” He turned and re-entered the tavern, leaving the two alone in the garden.

Moustrie sat dumbfounded and looked at Rose with wide, questioning eyes.

“I know,” Rose replied, “but I’m not about to argue with a noble. Are you going to eat that before it gets cold?”

Moustrie picked up a spoonful of vegetables and popped it into her mouth. “Wow! This is much better!” she exclaimed with a joyful swish of her tail.

“Told you,” Rose mumbled around a bite of the warm, soft bread. The two friends exchanged information between mouthfuls. Rose related what happened inside, omitting the fact that the royal heir was a judge; she didn’t want to upset Moustrie.

Moustrie, in turn, went over the competition details that Merewin gave her.

Rose took another swallow of the wine. “You mean you’ve got to make up a whole story based on what they ask? Can you do that?”

Moustrie nodded eagerly. “I think so. If they ask for a love story, I tell them one.” She wiped the crumbs from her muzzle with the back of her forepaw. “It can be a story that I already know.”

Just then the back door opened and a gopher poked his head out. “You’re just about up, Moustrie. You’d better get inside and be ready.”

They quickly gathered the dishes and went inside, blinking into the darkness interspersed with pools of colors from the windows. The room was quiet as everyone listened closely to the buck storyteller’s words. The gopher gestured for Rose to return the dishes to the tavern-keeper and led Moustrie to the front of the room, pausing just behind the judges.

Moustrie was more nervous than ever before and started trembling. “You’ll do fine,” came a deep-voiced whisper to her large ears. She glanced over her shoulder and glimpsed Glaston sitting in the shadow of a supporting beam just behind the judges’ table.

“…And when their eyes met, they both could look deep into each other’s soul. Tears welled up in joy; at last they found each other. Thus ends the tale of Nora and Jayson,” the stag storyteller finished with a flourish and bow to the judges.

As Mallory led him away, Merewin brought Moustrie before the judges: a boar, a toad, a lioness and a griffin. “This last contestant is Moustrie,” she announced. “Moustrie, this is Bannon, Patrick, Leoni and Hereclitus,” she indicated each of the judges in order.

Moustrie nodded her head to each in acknowledgement, but all the faces were new to her and she was too nervous to register any of the names.

With a graceful sweep of her tail, Merewin strolled to the chair that Mallory held for her, leaving Moustrie alone before the judges.

Leoni crossed her arms, leaned back in her chair and muttered, “Why is there a peasant in this contest?”

Glaston pitched his voice to her feline ears only. “Perhaps they want to bring nobles, commoners and peasants to the same level.”

Leoni’s ears flattened and she grimaced in disgust. She was about to reply but realized that the speaker was a noble.

By then Bannon had finished writing comments and checked the score-sheet on the table before him. “Moustrie? Ah, good. Leoni,” he said turning to the she-lion, “it’s your turn to decide – and please – not another mushy love story.”

“As you wish.” Leoni studied Moustrie as though she was an insect found in a favorite dish. The lioness grinned mischievously and said, “Then the story shall be this: a tale of true friendship and sacrifice between a noble and a peasant.”

Moustrie’s tail swished, and her forepaw rose to her muzzle in thought as her mind pulled a plot line together.

“Oh, and it must be a true story,” Leoni added as she leaned forward and casually raked one of her long claws along the table top.

Moustrie’s ears and tail drooped and her gaze fell to the floor.

A murmur rippled through the room.

Patrick rolled his eyes rafterward then sent a meaningful glance toward Bannon beside him.

The boar nodded and turned to the lioness. “Perhaps you misspoke. So seldom do nobles and peasants interact that closely; this is a difficult story to tell.”

The feline purred as she leaned back in her chair with a daring, devilish grin. “I spoke correctly. If she knows such a story, let’s hear it. If not, she’s out of this contest.”

Hereclitus was about to speak when Glaston hissed, “Let it be; let’s see how this plays itself out.”

Moustrie stood silent in front of the judges, her mind racing. Then an old story that her mother told her rose from her memory. “I… I know a story,” she quietly said, raising her eyes to the crowded common-room. She lifted her head confidently with an almost daring look in her eye. “I’d like to tell it.”

Murmurs rose to peak, then silence settled. All eyes were locked on her, and all ears were swiveled toward her. Leoni’s ears flattened along her head, her teeth bared in a silent snarl, and her full set of claws carved deeply into the tabletop. Merewin and Mallory exchanged puzzled glances and put their heads together, whispering. Bannon and Patrick exchanged smug smiles, then the boar gestured. “Proceed then.”
- - -

“Two generations ago, there was a peasant mouse named Seana who lived in a village not far from a great, deep wood. Oftimes when she was done with her work in the local tavern, she’d spend her free time in the afternoon exploring the woodlands. One day, she spied a young dragon there. Not quite sure how to approach this noble, she hid herself and watched him day after day.

“Some days, the dragon occupied himself by creating marvelous little creatures from folded paper, which he later gave to friend and stranger alike or left behind for someone to discover later. On windy days, the dragon was seen in a large clearing. Children’s laughter filled the air as he patiently taught them – noble, commoner and peasant alike – to make colored paper constructions dance like butterflies on the breeze.

“At other times, when people would wander alone and disheartened into the woods, there the dragon would be, ready to listen to their troubles and aid them anyway he could. And whenever people needed a safe haven, the dragon opened his home to them. As Seana witnessed all this, she learned that nobility could be courteous and kind to those stationed below them.

“A pawful of years had passed before the mouse gained the courage to approach the dragon in the woods. But when she did, she knew she had nothing to fear from him, and a strong friendship developed between them. The dragon taught her many things: how to open her eyes and see the world around her without prejudice; to think before acting; to understand the consequences of making a decision and to stick with that decision once made. She grew in confidence of her own capabilities and passed this wisdom to her husband and children. Seana also told the dragon much about her family in the village, and the years passed pleasantly.

“One day, a young griffin – just about the dragon’s age – came to the woods. Though the dragon would have welcomed him, the griffin used an illusion to disguise himself as a lion. The dragon, at this time, was busy teaching pages the proper handling and respect for weapons.

“The griffin drew his saber, boldly called his challenge and charged the dragon. The children panicked and scattered, but Seana found the courage to unsheathe her small utility knife and help her dragon friend. The griffin sought to dispatch her right away so he could focus on his fight with the dragon. The blow came fast, but the dragon was even swifter. Lightning-quick, he threw himself between his friend and the griffin’s blade.

“The move was hurried and miscalculated. The griffin’s saber slid along the dragon’s sword with the keening sound of steel on steel. Then the saber sprung from the tip of the sword and bit deeply into the dragon’s side.

“The blow didn’t kill the dragon outright, but his strength ebbed quickly from him. With the last of his reserves, the dragon slashed at the head of his attacker. The illusion broke as the griffin cried out in pain; a red line of blood dampened his facial feathers.

“When the dragon drew back in surprise, the griffin slashed across the dragon’s torso, trying to gut his victim under his protective plates. Holding his gaping side, the dragon collapsed into a growing puddle of blood.

“Seana squeaked a battle cry and scurried between the dragon and his attacker.

“With a graceful sweep of his saber, the griffin sent her blade flying freely through the air. Then he circled her, playing a dangerous game of cat and mouse.

“Thinking quickly, Seana seized a large rock at her feet – as big as her head – and positioned it shoulder high to throw it at the griffin.

“Not so fast, mouse” he snickered and neatly sliced open her throat.

“She collapsed and the rock fell from her forepaws and struck the dragon’s side with a crack that sounded like breaking ribs.

“With a tremendous groan, the dragon’s eyes fluttered close.

“Ready to deliver the final blow to the dragon, the griffin paused when he heard someone approaching them. Since the dragon’s pallor was death white, apparently beyond recovery, the griffin quickly fled the scene.

“What the griffin didn’t realize was that the dragon had carried a vial of water from the unicorn pool in his pouch. The falling rock had struck the vial, breaking it open. It took some time for the water to seep through the lining and into his wounds but it healed him sufficiently to live. Sadly, by the time the dragon awoke, the water was gone and it was too late to save his friend. Pale and weak, he gently gathered her in his arms and brought her into his home.

“Seana’s family sought her when she didn’t return that afternoon, but they were unable to locate her. However, late that night the dragon slipped unnoticed into the poorer part of the village and brought her body home to her family. Once inside, he revealed his identity and told them what happened in the woods. Then he slipped out and no one has seen him since.

“For two generations, this story lived, passed from parent to child down through Seana’s family. And it is this very story that I share with you this day. Thus ends the tale of Seana and the dragon.”
- - -

Stunned silence filled the room, and Moustrie trembled in anticipation as she studied the judges’ faces. Bannon grinned proudly as he scribbled something down on the papers before him. Patrick sat back, sipping wine and nodding his approval. Leoni glared silently at Moustrie. Hereclitus looked… confused, as though he was trying to understand a complicated puzzle. Merewin and Mallory had their heads close, speaking in hurried whispers.

Bannon cleared his throat and said, “Well, considering the difficulty level, I believe we have our winner.”

“WHAT!” roared Leoni, leaping to her feet, haunches rising and teeth bared. “That’s got to be a lie! No noble would sacrifice his life for a peasant!”

Bannon also rose, spines bristling. “You yourself placed the restriction that the story must be true.” He turned to Moustrie, “It is true, is it not?”

“Yes sir,” Moustrie answered proudly, “It is, every word.”

“How do you know this story?” inquired Patrick curiously.

“Seana was my grandmother. My mother was old enough to remember when the dragon brought her home.”

“Lie!” growled Leoni. “A savage lie! There’s been no dragon living in our woods! Why would there be?”

With her own teeth bared and ears flung back, Merewin snarled at Leoni. “There was such a dragon, long ago. If Seana was Moustrie’s grandmother, there would have been a solitary dragon living there. We have records of him in court.”

Hereclitus’ head snapped up. “Then who was this griffin?”

Rumors, questions and guesses sent up such a ruckus in the common-room that everything happened quickly. Bannon removed his notes from the table before Leoni could shred them. Merewin pulled Moustrie into the kitchen, but not before she noticed Glaston leading a very upset griffin out the front door.

A moment later, Mallory dragged Rose into the kitchen with him. He glanced over his shoulder indicating the rising noise level in the common-room. “Singed Fur! You sure stirred them up out there. That was a good tale. Your grandmother, you say? Tell us more about it.”

“That’s all I know, honest!”

“It’s all right, dear. You did nothing wrong,” Merewin said as she patted Moustrie’s trembling hands. “In fact, I think you’ve won the contest.”

“You did it!” Rose cried and hugged Moustrie enthusiastically.

Just then, Patrick peered around the door. “Ah!” he croaked and hopped into the kitchen. “There you are. I needed to speak with you before you left.”

Mallory held up his hand. “Moustrie still has one more requirement to fulfill.”

Patrick’s eyes narrowed. “I thought the competition was over.”

“I’m obliged to invite Moustrie to entertain the court and the ruling family with the story.” Mallory exchanged meaningful glances with Merewin, and she held her tongue. He faced the storyteller. “You’ll be guests of nobility this evening. Will you honor us?”

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The room blazed with gold, silver and sparkling gems. Food was prepared and arrayed in the finest fashion. Wine chilled in buckets of snow brought back from the distant mountaintops by the fleetest feet. Moustrie hungered at the tantalizing scent of the bounty set on tables along one side of the feast hall. She absently fingered the simple dress she wore, quite out of place in all this glamor.

She hadn’t budged from the corner where she stood since Merewin brought her here – that was two hours ago. Lady Merewin and Lord Mallory had disappeared for a short time and returned in their decadent courtly garb. Jewels sparkled from both their outfits in the bright candlelight as the two foxes intermingled with the other members of court. By now, many nobles, lords and ladies were feasting, catered by silent yet swift servants. Moustrie glanced nervously to the high table where three vacant chairs sat in the radiance of polished plates and sparkling goblets.

Just then, a blare of trumpets announced the arrival of the Prince, Princess and their son and heir, Hereclitus. The entire assemblage rose as one and faced the ruler’s private entrance. Hendrick, a proud griffin, stroke forward confidently. His satin tunic and cape were trimmed with gold threadwork, while a finely-crafted golden coronet circled his head. With a delicate hand upon his arm, Galatea, the beautiful and well-loved griffin Princess, strolled gracefully beside him. Both her courtly garb and smaller coronet matched the Prince’s. Behind them, Hereclitus followed. His bearing wasn’t overly proud; he walked confidently and smiled warmly at their guests.

At first Moustrie watched the procession in awe; this was the first time she had ever seen the Principality’s rulers. Suddenly, she gasped when she recognized Hereclitus. He was one of the judges in the storytelling competition. He’s the heir? She started trembling and fought the urge to flee. Many tales of horrible things done to peasants by this family came to mind. Did I say something wrong when I told the story?

Merewin moved swiftly to the high table, kneeled and spoke with the ruling family.

When Galatea raised her glass goblet, a respectful silence dropped like a muffling blanket in the hall. “I hear we have a storyteller who will honor us with the tale that won a competition today. Please, Lady Merewin, bring her out.”

Malevolent whispers hissed across the feast hall when Merewin pulled Moustrie from the shadows. Moustrie’s eyes pleaded with Merewin, but the vixen told her in hushed tones, “Have no fear; you have friends here.”

Hendrick cried, “A peasant? What game are you playing, Merewin?”

Mallory stood up, bowed and replied, “If your highness would just listen to the wondrous tale that she has told this afternoon, you will hear the treasure we’ve found. She has a true story about a noble’s great deeds that I’m sure none of us has ever heard before.”

“A noble’s great deeds, eh? Very well, tell the mouse to get on with it.”

Before her first words were out, the murmurs of other conversations nearly drowned Moustrie’s story out. But the tale had to be told, so she strained her vocal chords, speaking her loudest and practically shouting at the royal couple who listened half-heartedly, engaged in their own conversations.

When she reached the point where the griffin disguised himself, Hendrick cocked his head and frowned. Then he signaled to a pegasus sitting in the room who rose and walked to another table, roughly nudging Moustrie out of his way.

Moustrie stumbled a step forward and her monologue stopped abruptly. Humiliated, tears threatening in her eyes, she swallowed her pride and continued. At another signal from Hendrick, the same pegasus rudely shoved the storyteller to the floor as he returned to his seat. Tears welled in her eyes, sparkling in the candlelight and leaving damp streaks down her furred cheeks.

Hereclitus slammed his goblet on the table and rose. All in the room turned as one to eye him. “Moustrie came a long way to tell you all something very important – something about our history. It should behoove you all to hear it.”

Hendrick’s eyes narrowed as he smashed his own goblet down, shattering it and staining the tablecloth with expensive red wine. “And what would a peasant know about our history,… Son?”

Galatea replied quietly, “Dear, this storyteller has lived in our Principality her whole life. Since you are from another realm, you may not have learned all of our history. It would be nice to hear some of the old stories again.”

Hereclitus studied his father with renewed interest. “Another realm?”

“You contemptuous upstart!” Hendrick snapped at Hereclitus. “You’re not yet Prince of this realm!”

Galatea restrained Hendrick’s arm and gently pulled the Prince back into his seat. “Now dear, we must not embarrass our guests with your temper.”

After a long moment, Hereclitus also took his seat.

The Princess nodded to Merewin. “Please have your storyteller continue.”

Merewin nodded to Moustrie who shook so bad she could not speak. Mallory strolled over to her and gave her a drink from his own goblet. “Calm yourself,” he whispered, “We can’t turn back now. You must finish your story.”

Moustrie drew a deep breath and continued her story under the suddenly rapt attention of all. Mallory stood by her side until confidence grew in her voice once again. Moustrie realized something in the story triggered this argument and tried to portray the details as best as she could.

When she told how the griffin dispatched Seana, Hendrick leapt to his feet, wings extended as he seethed in rage. “You lie! How can you know all this, mouse? No one witnessed this! It was years before you were ever born!”

Hereclitus’ eyes narrowed and Galatea’s eyes widened with horror.

Moustrie couldn’t take any more and ran weeping from the feast hall. Hereclitus quickly signaled to the guards to let her go.

Galatea grabbed Hendrick’s arm but he yanked it away. “Tell me you didn’t,” she cried, tears streaming down her face. “Tell me you did not kill the dragon in the woods.”

Members of the court exchanged a few glances and a few discretely drew their blades ready for action.

“Of course not,” he replied, suddenly remembering there were others in the hall. “It is all lies. We all know that the dragon left the realm when you sought to wed him.”

“Moustrie’s words are TRUE!” rang a clear, deep voice from a shadowed corner of the room. Glaston stepped into the light and strode purposely toward high table. “The story was about that mouse’s grandmother who was a dear friend of mine.”

“It couldn’t be,” snapped Hendrick. “That dragon was my age and you’re far older.”

“Am I?” asked Glaston as his image flickered to that of a younger dragon, then returned just as quickly back to the aged figure.

“No! It can’t be! I killed you! Gods of Thunder! And I let you help raise my son?! Begone spirit! She was only a mouse and you were my competition for the coronet.”

Confused and shocked, Galatea reached toward Glaston. “But why?” she sobbed.

Hendrick furiously backhanded her across her face, causing her to fall to the floor.

Hereclitus rose to intervene, but Galatea waved him back. The feast hall echoed with the sounds of chairs scraping back, as court members rose from their seats.

“How else would I have won you and the coronet?” Hendrick snapped at his wife. “That fool would have won the courtesy contest your father held.”

“But I loved him! That’s why my father arranged the contest thus. How could you?” She got up to hit him with her fists, but he struck her down again.

Hereclitus was in her place in a heartbeat, and the other members of the court flocked behind him with their blades sparkling in the candlelight.

Hendrick scowled at them. “I am still in power here.”

“Not anymore,” Hereclitus replied. “The power of the throne is the people who back it. You are alone and shall be exiled for your actions,… Father.”

“Traitors!” Hendrick squawked, “Traitors, one and all!” He turned and fled the room with a mob at his heels.

Hereclitus remained and helped his mother to her feet. Then he turned to his tutor and studied the aged dragon. “You’re not a ghost.” He paused, weighing his next words. “Why didn’t you tell me who you were?”

Glaston dropped the illusion so all could truly see him. “You might have believed that I wanted your cornet, which I do not. But I did want Hendrick off the throne, and I had to wait until you were old enough to assume its responsibilities.”

Galatea stared in disbelief. “You are alive? And you never let me know? Why? I loved you!”

Glaston stepped back a bit, “I cared much for you too, Galatea, but you were the only heir to your father’s coronet. And the court and all its trappings,” he added with a broad sweep of his arm, “were not for me.”

Hereclitus weighed these answers and said, “I shall not forget what you have taught me.”

Glaston smiled. “I must be off; there’s one part left unfinished.”

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Moustrie made it back to the village by foot and met Rose and Patrick as they stepped out of the tavern. Rose saw Moustrie’s tears and ran to her friend’s side. “Tails! What happened, girl?”

“Terrible… so terrible…” was all Moustrie could squeak out between sobs.

Patrick draped a comforting arm over her shoulders, trying to add his support. “Lousy reception, eh?” he croaked. “Well, we’ve got better news.” He grinned broadly. “For one, I’ve just hired your friend, Rose, to wait on our tables.”

“Our?” Moustrie sniffled.

“You don’t think that thick-headed ox owns the whole joint, do you? Who do you think runs things?”

Moustrie smiled a little, feeling the warmth from the toad’s open personality. “That’s great, Rose; we’ll miss you at Riverside Tavern.”

“There’s more,” Rose added as she bounced on her toes.

“More?”

Patrick’s face split into a wider grin. “Our former storyteller has left the Principality and consequently our employ. And quite frankly, with him gone, you’re the best storyteller in the realm. I’d like to hire you too.”

“You want me to tell stories and wait on tables here?”

“Your talent is far too valuable for that,” he corrected. “You just tell your stories and keep our patrons entertained.”

“I say it’s a splendid idea,” came a deep, persuasive baritone from the dark. Glaston, once again the aged dragon, emerged into the pool of light before the tavern.

“Ah! Lord Glaston, what are you doing out alone tonight?”

“I only wanted to ensure that our storyteller keeps telling her stories. Remember,” he said turning to Moustrie with a wink and a gentle smile, “a sharp blade may kill many, but only the truth can bring whole realms down.” Then he turned away and faded into the darkness.

- ESA